5 months, New YEAR!

Hello!  It has been quite some time that I've been away from the blogging world.  I've missed being able to write down my thoughts and share with some of you who read some of my writings. I'd like to start by saying that A LOT has changed in 5 months.  And I'm happy to know that change is good, change is needed.  Let me start off by saying that Derek and I are expecting baby # 2!!!  Zyana-Lee is going to be a BIG sister to a baby BROTHER! We are due in late August and we were beyond shocked to know that we would be expecting again.  We talked about trying again but, bang.  It happened all within a month time.  God is good, because the Lord does give you the desires of your heart, and I have to say that our desire was to have another and He is faithful because he finally gave us a boy.  I am also pleased to announce that I am back in school.  Working on the masters degree in psychology/professional counseling and though grad school is quite expensive I know that it is all worth the time and effort for our growing family. Besides the current news with a new pregnancy my little Zyana is a trip.  Right now baby doll is at that stage where she repeats everything you say, so lately I've been trying to stop the words: crap, bs, dang it, oh man, what the!, and a few others.. Though their not bad words, they are bad habits to me and the last thing I want is my daugther picking up on those words. 
Well, I plan to be back to the vlogging world.  My time management is improving but I'd love to finally get on a good schedule with everything we all go.  until next time,
Night!

30 weeks, 10 to go! Oh MY word.

Well World, today marks 30 weeks.  What can I say up to this time?  A lot actually.  Let me try to stay positive. 

Back hurts.
heels hurt (not swollen THANK THE LORD).
So hungry like a homeless person.
Really tired.
I'm always HOT which is NOT normal.
I sometimes have a burst of energy where I don't want to nap. ever.
Im ready to be done working with. 
I think I am FINALLY starting the "nesting" period.
I'm loving online shopping rather than store shopping.
Getting anxious and sad at the same time. :(
I LOVE dressing up.
I am so in love with wedge sandals. :)  especially being pregnant and wearing them:)
I do feel like I'm at the point of being sleeping naked.  but then I think its kinda weird. :)
I HATE doing my hair in the morning.  I guess you can call it all around laziness. aka.. pregnancy.

Other than my negative and positive list.. Things are going good.  in the past 7 months of pregnancy I've gained... wait for it.. wait for it... 4 whole pounds!  Yes.  well first beginning of pregnancy I actually lost 16 pounds, due to asthma and such.. but yes, 4 pounds.. Its kind of crazy. I hope baby girl doesnt come out too small.  hey its not my fault.  I am ALWAYS hungry.
And to be honest.  NOT ONCE have I thrown up since I've been pregnant.  guess everyone is different.  I am so glad that it hasnt happened to me yet.

Derek and I took a birthing class at West Valley Hospital on Saturday.  a whole 7 hour class!  It was kinda cool and terrifying at the same time.  Im not anxious at ALL about the delivery part of it.  I just dont know how women actually survive the birthing process.  call me crazy. lol

Gotta go. 
-B

28 weeks pregnant, 12 weeks to go.

Holy Toledo.   These past 28 weeks have went by so fast that I don't even know where the time went!  Life has been so hectic I don't know where to begin.  Lest start with the most recent news.  Yesterday, I ended up in the hospital after work.  2 days ago I was feeling really bad lower cramping in my abdomen area which I have not experienced since being pregnant.. so just to be sure after work I called up Derek and told him that I had to go to the hospital.  First I called the drs office to see if they'd see me, that was a negative they told me to immediately go to the hospital. So I did.  Derek met me there. After I was admitted they took me up to the labor and delivery floor to get me examined.  Lets just say everything went well.  All is fine,  no dialation, no water breaking, no nothing.  Apparently I must be feeling these things they call braxton hicks.  Which since I've never been pregnant I don't know what to experience.  So we were both relieved with everything being okay with Zyana.  To be honest, I wasn't even worried..  okay just a little but not about her, I was more worried that if she were to come at any day we'd be absolutely unprepared!  but I guess all you really need for a newborn is diapys, wipes and onesies. :)  trust me, we got that covered.  But thus far God has been good to me with blessing me with a perfect pregnancy.  I've not gained more than 5 pounds and I am feeling great about myself.  BUT I am NOT looking forward to the labor part, actually I've been putting off thinking about it for as long as I possibly can. :)

In other news, the house is coming along great.  I am finally getting adjusted to living alone with no nieces around!  but I am thankful that God made a way that me and my sister live 3 streets from each other.  Which is nice cause the development we live in, our houses are actually walking distances. :)  But the house is good.  picture frames and walla decor hasnt went up just yet.. but Derek did putty all old holes, fixed the toliet, bought a garage door opener and is soon about to hang up ceiling fans. 

Other news:

The day we moved into the house,  our dogs Zoey and Molly ran away.  2 days later we found Molly.  We didn't find Molly.  The Buckeye police department found her relaxing underneath a tree, in the shade and grass out of breath in FRONT of the police department.  Thought that was funny..  I think she was tired of running and turned herself in.  Thank God that we put microchips in both of them. Zoey, on the other hand has yet to be found.  We've had non stop calls about people seeing her in the neighbrohood but no one can catch her cause the dumb dog is scared of people!  dang dog.   I hope she is okay,  our search continues to find her.

Not much else to update, but I am trying to update every few days.. were in the long strech now.  Third Trimester here we ccome. :)

-B.Gonzo

Drum Role Please..... Baby Girls Name is......

Zyana-Lee Grace Gonzalez

This song just reminds me of my husband. HE does so much for me and baby girl.

Sanctus Real - “Lead Me”

I look around and see my wonderful life

Almost perfect from the outside

In picture frames I see my beautiful wife

Always smiling

But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

“Lead me with strong hands

Stand up when I can't

Don't leave me hungry for love

Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight

That I'm still the love of your life

I know we call this our home

But I still feel alone”

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes

They're just children from the outside

I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine

They're independent

But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

“Lead me with strong hands

Stand up when I can't

Don't leave me hungry for love

Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight

That I'm still the love of your life

I know we call this our home

But I still feel alone”

So Father, give me the strength

To be everything I'm called to be

Oh, Father, show me the way

To lead them

Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands

To stand up when they can't

Don't want to leave them hungry for love,

Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight

And give them the best of my life

So we can call this our home

Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone