100 Things about ME

I have been sitting at work thinking of what I could write in my blog and the only thing I could come up with is things about me (the obvious and the not-so-obvious) things people know/ don't know about me. I made a "100 things about me", last Feb.. you can see it HERE

So here is my 2012 list.  :)


1.  I'm 25 years old. And my birthday is 11/03 and I absolutely hate it when people tell me that I'm "Scorpio". I don't believe in astrology, never will.


2. I love Jesus Christ with ALL my heart.

3. I'm married to a wonderful white boy named Derek Ray, who is 24 years old. (The White boy part is the obvious. LOL)

4. We have a beautiful little baby girl named Zyana-Lee Grace Gonzalez, and her name means "Blessing from Heaven". We named her after Derek’s grandmother Ann Lee who was born into this crazy world on September 25, 2011.

5. I was a Navy girl friend for 1 year, then turned Navy wife for 2 years, now turned civilian wife. I prefer Navy wife over civilian wife any day.

6. My husband and I have served two back to back deployments, Afghanistan, and I learned throughout the times he was gone to be the best wife I could ever be.

7. I take pride in knowing that I am one of the very few women who could say that their spouse served this country, and I do stand a little taller. :).

8. I am a middle child of 3 girls. Yes, 3 girls. Oh my poor dad.

9. My sister’s names are Vanessa Sanchez who is 27 and Angelica Rodriguez who just proudly turned 21.

10. My parent’s names are Steve and Maria Anguis. And God granted to me the best parents ever. Steve, (to the world's standards is actually my "step-dad" but to ME. He is OUR DAD.) My biological dad resides in Greely, Colorado and his life consists of drinking alcohol throughout every single day of his life, and has a girlfriend named Cassie who he refuses to marry, because he is still secretly in love with my mom. (I know, I know kinda daytime novellas)

11. I have 2 amazingly, absolutely beautiful nieces. Mariah Adrielle who just turned 2 years old. And Naomi Adriana who is a few months shy of 1 years old.

12. Before they were born, I never had any desire for children. Ever. Then God changed my heart. Forever. Now I want like 4 more kids.. How in the heck does it go from wanting none to at least wanting 5. :)

13. And now....I absolutely LOVE being a mother. It has been such an amazing time and I know it'll only get better.

14. I EBF... for someone who doesn't know what that means, it means, I exclusively breastfeed. And I like it.

15. I just graduated from the University of Phoenix receiving my Bachelors degree in Business.

16. I have a few pet peeves.  They include dirty bathroom tubs, sticky dirty tile floors, dirty dishes left in the kitchen sink, slow drivers and people who bite their nails.

17. Even though I am a woman, I cannot STAND shopping, especially for myself.

18. I LOVE shoes and BOOTS. My favorite shoe brands are Nine West, Bakers Shoes, Guess and ALDO.

19. In May of 2011, Derek and I bought our first house, and that was one of the biggest accomplishments that we have made thus far.

20. I'm a little on the obsessive side when it comes to reading blogs.

21. I love earrings. I own probably 60 + earrings. It’s sad that I can only wear 1 pair a day. :/

22. My Favorite movies of all time include, but are in no particular order:

The STAR WARS collection.

Glitter.

Win a date with Tad Hamilton.

Joseph.

The Bodyguard.

Good Fellas.

Ben Hur.

23. My Favorite actor is Terrance Howard. And my favorite actress is Natalie Portman.

My secret celebrity crushes are:

Denzel Washington

Lil Wayne

50 Cent

Gerard Butler

Natalie Portman

Scarlett Johansen

Mila Kunis

24. My Favorite colors are green, brown, and black. I hate purple and pink, even though those are pretty much the only colors my daughter wears.

25. My favorite brand of makeup is Urban Decay. That’s it, that’s all I'll wear.

26. I LOVE Reno 911 and JERSEY SHORE!

27. My favorite brands of clothing are New York & Company, Guess, Old Navy, Abercrombie & Fitch

28. My favorite stores are New York & Company, Old Navy, Ross, Target and Dillards.

29. I enjoy Nascar.

30. I love long hair and pretty nails.

31. I have a thing for big lifted trucks and nice shiny rims.

32. I love painting, decorating, water coloring and scrapbooking.  Sadly, I don’t nearly do any of them as much as I’d like to.

33. My husband and I teach the Jr. Youth at our church. We definitely have a passion for younger kids and teaching them the love of Christ.

34. My favorite bands and singers of all time include Michael Jackson and The Bee Gees and Queen.

35. I’m a very organized person, and everything in my house is labeled from my shoe boxes to my important documents.

36. I like to push people to do better.  There is nothing more awesome than pushing the people you love towards greatness.

37. I have an awesome family,  by awesome I mean my parents, sisters, brother in laws, and nieces.  Everyone else, extended wise are a bunch of the most dysfunctional people I have ever known.  I thank God that me, my sisters or my mom don’t fight  or argue to the point of not talking. 

38. I have a thing for Bath and Body works.  Their candles are to DIE for.

39. Candles in general are one of the most things I buy.

40. I have a dog, named Molly.  She’s a Lhasa Apso and likes to piss everywhere she’s not supposed to.

41. I like luxurious things.  Like Cadillac’s and Land Rovers.

42. I love clean floors and sanitized kitchen counters.

43. My shoe size is 6.

44.  I started my blog in 2008 when my husband was on his first deployment.  Every day I would write in it and he would read it when he could to know how things were going on this side of the world.

45.  I have a crazy, just a little, tiny obsession with makeup. I LOVE makeup, more of a fan of eye shadows and eyeliners.

46.  I don't like flushing the toilet.  And it BOTHERS my husband. (Yes, I am WEIRD and OPEN LOL)

47.  I love to make people laugh.

48.  I'm a sucker for horror movies, even the bad ones that feature Paris Hilton (The Wax House).

49.  I love pizza and wings.  It's better than dropping 60+ on a nice dinner.  :)

50.  Sometimes I can be a bit over emotional.  Shut up, don't judge.

51.  My favorite book growing up was, "If you give a mouse a cookie"

52.  I’ll write any day over reading.  I don't get how I earned a bachelor’s degree; cause it involved A LOT of reading.

53.  I love my American Express card.  Yes, a weird fact but I LOVE points!

54. I'm actually kind of a neat freak. It just...comes and goes. Sometimes I clean all night, just so I can wake up to a squeaky clean house.

55.  Anything seafood or fish related GROSSES me out.

56.  If I could have any voice narrate my life it would be Anthony Hopkins or Liam Neeson.  I LOVE their voices!

57. The only drug I ever tried was a cigarette. One time. It was the most disgusting thing I ever tasted.

58. I sing like a maniac in my car. It makes me feel like a rock star, even when I can't hit all the notes.

59. I hate being a woman 1 week out of every month. Ha.

60. I have a serious shoe fetish with extremely high heels and extremely pointy toes. So hot. But no, I have not mastered walking gracefully in them.

61.  One of my guilty pleasures is Hot Cheetos with lemon or Butterfingers. mmmm.

62.  People who make me laugh fascinate me. Especially when it’s a sarcastic or caustic remark that does it.

63.  I LOVE potatoes.  Bad.  Like I gotta have something potato related every week!

64. I like gardening, but everything I have ever attempted to grow has died.

65.  I love Christmas ornaments.

66. When I was younger, maybe 8.  My sister Vanessa and I were playing in a park (apparently we weren't supposed to be at that park because these black girls got mad and told us to leave.  Of course, me being me.  I didn't leave) and I got JUMPED! by 10, yes 10 black girls. While my sister Vanessa took off her shoes and ran HOME!!! She left me!  It wasn't funny at the time, but now when we talk about it, it is hilarious!

67.  I love Coffee!  and coffee creamer.  Irish crème, French vanilla. mmm.

68.  I hate ANY type of Pie.  Pie is gross!

69.  When I was younger my dad let us watch Children of the Corn, Freddy Kruger and Hell Raiser.  Couldn't sleep for months.

70.  I love photography, though I’m not talented to take pictures. I will jump in and have my picture taken any day! :)

71. I almost died, once.  Due to asthma.  I developed bronchitis and pneumonia at once.  It was a sad day.

72.  If I had any super powers I'd like to be invisible and read people’s minds.

73. My favorite fruits are pomegranates and plums.  Occasionally green grapes.

74.  Me and my husband share the same middle name, Ray.  Crazy but cool.

75.  I hate country music. 

76.  Though I ****NEVER*** wanted to get married, my wedding date was November 28th, 2008.  And truthfully, my husband has been a good man..(other than my daddy!)

77.   When I write I hold my pencil/pen so tight I get cramps in my hand.

78.  I have a thing about spices/ herbs.. And I am addicted to garlic.

79.  I can't go a morning without coffee.

80.  I take 5 medications a night.  Including the good ole birth control pill.. it better not fail me, LOL

81. I love scarves, even though I HATE turtlenecks or anything around my neck for that matter.

82. I absolutely LOVE being an auntie.  I can give them soda, chips, cookies and teach them to say mean things and then give them back to my sister and brother-in-law.  My brother-in-law says he can't wait until Zyana gets older so he can do the same thing.  Can we say PAY BACK?

83. I enjoy Christmas.  Decorating and getting all into the Christmas spirit just makes me happy.  Now that we have babies in the family... Christmas is all about them.  and I LOVE that.

84. I'm not a big fan of winter, actually I HATE the cold. 

85.  I addicted to the game Family Fued.

86.  I don't like going to the movies, but I do enjoy nice dining. 

87. I Love the smells of gas, rain, and beer.. even though I don't drink it.  It just smells good.  Sometimes I wish I could take a bath in it. LOL.

88. I'm not good at taking compliments well. 

89. I don't have good hand writing.  I have to write in cursive to make it look decent.

90.  I like to text rather than speak on the phone.

91. The only kind of sunglasses I will wear is aviator ones.

92. I think my daughter, and my nieces are the most beautiful little girls I have ever met.  But I AM bias.

93. My answer to every question I have is google.  I always say, "lets just google it" haha.

94. I can, but then I can't wait to have another baby.

95. If anyone buys be a gift, I always tell them a watch.  I like Guess watches... just sayin :)

96.  My dream vacation to go anywhere in the world would be Egypt.

97.  The first word I learned to spell was: Transportation. 

98.  I love pillows.  I'll choose cuddling with a pillow over my husband any day.  Kinda sad huh? LOL

99.  I'm kinda cynical and sometimes complacent.

100.  My name is Bernadette and I’m a bit on the sarcastic side. And most times I speak too much, hurt people’s feelings, step out of my bounds.  But one thing I know is that I’m true to myself.  I’m judged for who I am, how I look, and what I believe.  But that’s okay to me, because one thing is for sure.  I will probably be the most honest/blunt/outspoken person you’ll ever come across..  I'm a wife, a daughter, a mother, a sister and an aunt. I'm honest and open.  I enjoy the simple things in life like having my family around chomping on pizza and wings watching Joe Dirt for the hundredth time, all sitting around laughing like its a new movie to us.  I cry, I laugh.  Life gets hard, marriage has its up's and downs.. But this is me.  :)

I can’t really think of anything else to add. But When I do I’ll update my list.

Music

Alright,  I am really not a fan of secular music meaning I ONLY listen to Christian music, but I have a confession to make.  I am in love with Alicia Keys.  Her music, the way she writes and sings is just beyond me.   However, there is one song that I am crazy about.  I'm posting the video.  Chad Michael Murry is in the video too, which is a plus cause he is one handsome white boy. :)

OH 2010..

By far this has been one of the most roller coaster years we've experienced.  And I must say not only I, but my husband has learned so much.  Not only about each other, but about ourselves.  So I am going back to Jan 2010:

In January things were looking so great for us.  We were financially stable, I had a job for two months already and In Nov of 2009 we had our traditional family wedding.  We were living in Aliso Viejo, California.  Derek was still in the military and we officially begun our countdown to civilian life. Derek was getting in this Dec, 2010.  So well I was working Derek went off to do Bridgeport Training in Hawthorne, the winter package so it was extremely cold where he was going. Little did we know what was going to happen soon after he got home.

At the end of Feburary, Derek returned from in 5 week long mountain warfare training. and boy was I excited to have him home.  Everything was perfect!.  Well when he got home from MWT Derek was advised that he would be going on, yet another, Deployment.. This time it was to Afghanistan.  My heart dropped.  I can remember exactly how it all happened, in detail.  I came home from work on a Friday, it was the day that we were supposed to go and file our yearly taxes.  We did too!.  anyways, I came inside and he looked like something was bothering him.  I asked him what was wrong and he told me he needed to tell me something.. I knew it wasnt good, whatever it was because he told me to sit down.  So I sat down and he told me that he just got off the phone with his chief.  He was advised that he would be leaving to Afghanistan in two weeks!! Talk about a train wreck.  Ok, so as I sat there in shock the tears started rolling.  I learned that two weeks was going to come like overnight to me, but luckily we had 13 days to prepare with what we were going to do.  As soon as he told me, I called my mom, my sister Vanessa, Brittany, and then Angela.  It was such a shock for everyone I told.  Well so it began.  we began making arrangements with what we were going to do.  I told my job that I was going to be leaving and I put my two weeks notice in.  After that we told the apartment complex that we were living in as well.  They needed proof of documentation of Dereks deployment so we had to get a letter from his commader showing he was in fact deploying.  Everything went so smooth.  WE had enough time to get a storage and throw all of our belongings in storage.  So by this time, we are now up to the date of Dereks departure.  And to be completely honest I wasnt scared. I knew that Derek would be covered, not only because WE serve a mighty God but because the power of a praying WIFE. So as we sat there in the car I just started praying for him, he was leaving me.  AGAIN. As we made our way out of the car, he checked in.  He got his weapon and from there we sat and we waited for the big ugly white buses to arrive.  Peace took over my body, and the boldness of God gave not only me, but Derek the courage to take this chapter in our lives.  The time had arrived,  The buses arrived and the boys started loading their gear and belongings. As I sat there I began to pray for my husband again..  it was his time to load the bus, and not one tear came.  I was shocked, but I knew it was the peace of God.  As we said our goodbyes I knew that me being alone would be a little easier than last time.  but I knew it was going to hit me eventually. As he drove off all Derek was doing was smiling, and I cant help but remember how in love I was with his smile.  and I knew, that on the day of his homecoming he'd be smiling exactly the same.  So I began to drive away, and yet again, I wasnt scared.  So here we are.  March.  On the 25th Derek left en route to Afghanistan and on the 26th I was back en route to Phoenix, AZ.

Since I was jobless I began watching my god daugther Mariah Adrielle Sanchez.  And all I can say is that through the duration of Dereks Afghanistan deployment this little girl kept me on my toes.  I started watching her at 4 months old, and to be quite honest and embarssed she was the first diaper I have EVER changed, gimme a break here! :) So time was slow throughout the first month of the deployment.  I was still attending the University of Phoenix so I was keeping myself busy with school and church. 

We were officially about halfway through Dereks deployment.  Now its June.  I was staying busy still, busting my butt to pay bills and to stay on top of things.  Things were going good and at this time I was a homecoming mode.  Derek was due back in July.

So here we are, July 2010.  I have never been more excited in July! ( one of the hottest months in AZ!)  Derek was due back actually at the end of June, but because of current conditions in Afghanistan that didnt happen.  Anyways I was excited to see my husband.  It was been a very easy yet long deployment to me, even though it was only 4 months.  He was in a battlefield and all I did was worry about his safety..  Throughout the duration of the deployment I kept in great touch with Dereks family.  And I asked them if they would want to be apart of the homecoming.  and of course, without a doubt they were honored to be apart of this sepcial day.  Along with Dereks family, My sisters and my mother came for the homecoming.  Which couldnt have been more perfect.

Day of HOMECOMING: July 4th, 2010.  What more perfect day to have marines and sailors return from overseas?  Anyways, being that Derek had no clue that I had his family and my family with me I had to be sneaky!  So Derek calls me in the wee hours of the morning advising me that he and all the guys were accounted for and have LANDED on American Soil, in Conneticut I think..  So he told me that he would be arriving promtly at around 11 am at Camp Pendleton.  And now it was already 8 AM!!! I was running behind!  so I jumped in the shower and started getting ready, my man was home from Afghanistan!!! yes!  Well by the time everyone got ready we were out of the hotel by 11! I thought we were going to miss homecoming.  so we sped all the way to base!  Luckily, Dereks buses were running late.  but we did arrive on time.. as we sat there playing the waiting game, the buses pull up.  it was time. As the boys marched in, I waited anxiously with so much pride and excitement.  I was beyond proud of my husband.  He served two back to back deployments.  As the boys continued walking up.. There he was, he didnt see me but I saw him.  I was coming, actually running in 5 inch heels but finally his eyes met mines..and that smile that I was dying to see was right in front of me again.  I didnt have to look at a picture anymore.  He was right in front of me.  I held my banner up.  gave him a big hug and a little peck.  LOL his family was there.  He was so shocked to see them and so happy to have Mariah there.  It was love all over again.  And since this moment we've been stuck at the hip. 

Now, August,  Derek was on post deployment leave so he got to spend 2 weeks in AZ with me.  and guess what we did... WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!! We had been looking his whole deployment, I was sending him links via email.. but it just wasnt the same as it was having him home browse with me!  Anyways, we were approved with no problem.. and right now, we are two months from our house being completed. 

As for this year, I have personally learned that I know how to rely on God for all my needs.  He was my husband when Derek was absent.  He was the one who gave me the courage that I needed and the support that I needed too.  This year has been by far the hardest, but yet the best ever.  I am beyond thankful that my husband is home, for good.  He served 5 years in the United States Navy and now he is MINE. :)

Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name

The meaning behind my blog name

Well not much to exactly explain except that instead of just Ms. its MRS. I am married to the most amazing, most respectful, most loving, most incredible man I have ever met, aside from Daddy. :) Elobrating on the name Mrs. Gonzo.. Hmm. Well going from day 1's post. I am married. Gonzalez is my full last name but its short. My husband is in the miltary and they call him "Gonzo" for short, or Doc Gonzo. And I'm Mrs. Gonzo. :)

30 days of ME!~

Me. For a little change.

I stole this from a friends profile, so I figured I should try to commit to something lolfigured why not...
so heres to 30 days about me! Here is the titles...or whatever you wanna call them. Hopefully I can keep up with this, as there has been past posts that I have said I was going to keep up with something and never did!
30 days of me
Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future or about your spouse.
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Your favorite song.

HOUSE

WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!!!

Get Some 2/5

For those of you who read my posts, I know some of you do.. but I was given news yesterday evening that The Husband will soon be leaving to Afghanistan. Never did I thought he would have to leave me again. So this was quite a shocker to the both of us, and completely unexpected. So we have so much stuff to do! like plan my living arrangements, get dereks gear list situated. and school stuff arranged for me.

Soooo. his is officially on his pre-deployment leave. great huh?

not too much to say about this subject except ohhrah.

Some interesting facts.

1. I hate anything minty.

2. Citrus and pepper make my allergies go crazy.

3. I get really bad headaches from certain spices. ie. pepper.

4. My mom said that I have a natural scent of cinnamon.

5. I yawn probably 50 times a day. even when I aint tired.

6. I was told by my mom I was dropped on my head when I was a baby, she says that only when I say ignorant things. :)

7. I love tea and coffee.

8. A good book is the way to my heart.

9. I enjoy praying. praying is like a hobby of mine. :)

10. I became an auntie on Dec 16th, 2009 to the most beautiful baby I have ever laid eyes on.

11. I am married to an amazing person who has really pushed me to get to where I am today.

12. I bite my nails, its a really nasty bad habit, and really un lady like. but Im trying to stop.. hey at least I dont smoke right!? :

13. I am the middle child of the family.

14. and probably the one who was most spoiled as a child.

15. I have a minor obsession with Guess watches. I own like 13 going on 27.

16. I love my wedding ring, its the most significant item I own.

17. I want to join the Marines, but my husband refuses to let me join.

18. I have some pretty remarkable friends. and the few I have I wouldnt change them for anything.

19. The person who has ever had to most influence in my life happen to be My pastor for life. Pastor Jim Brown.

20. I have a cadillac, no I'm not spoiled. Im just blessed with great things.

21. This is weird, but I am terrified of seaweed at the beach. I feel like it could just wrap my body up and drown me.. DONT LAUGH!

22. Im in school to be a dr. and with God ALL things are possible.

23. I am absolutely mortified to have a child, when that day comes.

24. I always wanted bigger lips. I want collagen.

25. I have some crazy stories about me as a child. crazy unbelievable stories.

26. my dream is to visit Eygpt one day.

27. My favorite cruse word, that I dont say is: Jag-off (a Chicago regionalism) ITS NOT BAD PEOPLE.

28. I hate, cannot stand chocolate but I have a sweet tooth anyday for butterfingers.

29. I hate sad movies.

30. I cannot function correctly if I do not have my morning coffee.

31. I get real worried when I think about my future. and my age.. lol

32. I love reading biographies.

33. I like learning new words. weird, yes.

34. I am secretly in love with Terrance Howard and Denzel Washington. Yes, my husband does know this. :)

35. I rarely remember my dreams. This has not always been the case.

36. I've laughed so hard that I've peed in my pants on several different occasions. last was with Brittany.

37. Obama should not be president. End of story.

38. I have always found books about serial killers interesting. I know weird huh?

39. one of several ongoing passions of mine is: driving.

40. My mother is one of th greatest singers that I have ever listened to. she amazes me everyday.

41. I love the sound of the ocean.

42. What turns me off: Close-mindedness, gossip meant to hurt somebody

43. The first word I learned to spell was: Transportation.

44. I hated long division math when I was a kid, actually, I still hate it.

45. I hate video games, last I played was with Derek from there on I had bad dreams about zombies chasing me.. Medal of honor I believe.

46. I like to sleep with 6 pillows.

47. I could by a pair of shoes every day if I could.

48. Orchids and red long stem roses are my favorite.

49. I love Davidoff Cool Water. dont get me started...... :)

50. I spent my 21st birthday in San Deigo with Derek. Thats all I can remember. haha.

51. I want to expierence a Mardi Gras. just once.

52. My last name is Gonzalez, and my husband is a white boy. strange huh! :)

53. I dont accept Michael Jackson being dead. HE is my favorite.

54. I cant stand when Im waiting in line and I can feel the person behind me breathing on me.

55. I hate being placed on hold.

56. I hate ironing.

57. I cant stand Spencer Pratt. that guy is a douche.

58. I love the Bee Gees beyond words.

59. people say Im strange. I dont get why? haha

60. I want to own a pool when I purchase a home.

61. I believe everything that the Bible says.

62. I guess I grind my teeth when I sleep. thats a no no.

63. I hate fastfood.

63. My sister Vanessa makes fun of my toes, she calls them french fries.

64. my baby sister will be a marine. some day.

65. I am so proud of my family. they are wonderful in every way possible.

66. I think Kim Kardashian is absoultely stunning.

67. I always wanted to own a pinto.

68. but then again, my dream car is a Range Rover.

69. Greena and brown are my favorite colors.

70. I miss mom and dad.

71. I enjoy barnes and noble when I dont have any money. just go and read some lit.

72. I love airports.

73. I have a real star in the sky named after me. no lie.

74. I suck at parking my car, but great at driving it :)

75. I want to buy my mom a newer cadillac. the xlr couple one. she deserves it.

76. I love it when my parents tell me they are proud of me. that will never ever get old to me.

77. I love the smell of strawberries.

78. I will name my son, Zacariah or Ezekiel. if that ever happens. lol

79. I like taking baths.

80. I HATE shaving, its so time consuming.

81. I want to write a childrens book.

82. Im allergic to bananas.

83. I love listening to people with accents, its so sexy. haha

84. I will never own a van. sorry no soccer moms here.

85. I really enjoy Army Wives. even though its not all true.lol

86. I want to go to the olympics some day.

87. my favorite TV show growing up was Three's Company.

88. I really appreciate war movies.

89. I made an attempt to be a gardener, do over please?

90. my mom made me and my sisters watch sesame street growing up.. I think it helped.

91. I love tattoos and peircings.

92. I want Dereks initials on my ring finger one day.

93. Hollywood Blvd makes me uneasy. haha

94. My favorite band is Sanctus Real.

95. I hate cold weather, but some day I would love to make San Francisco my home.

96. I want to own a boat.

97. And meet a president.

98. Im a bookworm.

99. Im an overanalyzer.

100. Im 23 going on 36 wanting the best of life.. I have an amazing family, good friends.

Thinking

So my sister and I were having a conversation about children. All of my female cousins have popped out a child except me. on ALL sides of the family. is that wrong? I dont want kids anytime soon but I have been getting so much pressure from everyone including my husband about having a child. I DO NOT WANT A CHILD anytime soon. How hard is that to understand? I have a life of school still ahead of me. I have been in college for 6 whole years already and I have done just fine without a lil Gonzo crawling around. Im tired of taking everyones BS on having a child.

that stupid darn superbowl

I dont see why people make such a huge overrated deal when it comes to sports, generally the retarded supebowl. I guess it just makes me so mad when I see die had fans go all out for a couple of hours of a stupid ball being thrown around. I dont get it? why are people that way when it comes to football? It breaks me heart to see so many lost people across the world get crazy like that for a game.. Just think of this for a moment. could you possibly begin to imagine people getting like that for God and for church? as much as I would love to say that could be the case, reality of it is that will never happen. People everyday are loosing their souls because of the consquences people make. but I just wish they would really take a look into their lives and try to find some salvation. It would be so great to see an arena filled like that and pumped for Christ that way. but that'll never happen.

anyways, I guess I am done venting. I never said that there is anything wrong with people enjoying a nice game and stuff. but how bout we try harder to be that way for God. Is that wrong?

Prayer Prayer Prayer.

So news is with the process with purchasing our first home.

We've been contacted by the VA and the process to getting the first step done is out of the way. WE needed to fill out the Va certificate of eligibility. Done that. check.

Now were getting pre-approved on an amount.. and to make things more exciting I have found a house that I absolutely loved the moment I saw it. 4 beds, 3 baths. huge kitchen, 3-car garage. marble counter tops in the kitchen along with tile and carpeting in the rooms. witha GRASS backyard. yay! and its actually UNDER our budget.. So Derek has yet to see it but hopefully he will love it as much as I do.. actually I think he will, because his precious wife found it for cheaper than what we initially decided on. Cant wait to go and see it.. since its located in Zona, mom and dad are gonna head out to go see it. what I like most about the property is that it is literally a hop, skip and a jump away from my sissys house. which means we can have the baby on whenever we'd like.. ALSO its less than 5 mins from mom and dad.. metophorically speaking-we could all see each other daily.

We are standing and beleiving God for his promises and just believing in Him.

anyways more updates to follow.

Today I think I have come to realize that I need an intervention. I admire shoes. Shoes represent people. Shoes have originality. Shoes have style. Shoes show who you are as a person. Shoes make you. And I think I have come to realize that I need to part from some of the shoes that I own. I own quite a few shoes and yesterday there was an incident.

Yesterday I was running late.. and in a hurry I totally forgot to turn on my closet light as I was running out of the house, and I totally grabbed two left black heels to work yesterday morning. :~(. yes, two left black heels. quite embarassing I might add. I called someone and they told me they would let my manager know. I was 27 minutes late.. hahaha.. But I really think I need to part. I dont know if I can do that though.

Well good news is i wore flats to work

oh, you wanna know when my husband comes home?

He comes home next month some time! Wooo! Yes its been a tough 6 months and finally its almost time to call this deployment over!! I can tell you of all the emotions that I've had, my crazy mood swings, my really bad pity fits, my times where I've just wanted to crawl in a hole and die! Well, I don't wanna bore ya. Right now I can't even sleep because I'm so anxious in knowing that my husband returns home. Its been so rough, but God is good, he's provided for the both of us and he made a way for me to make it this far. Through these past months I can look back and see how much I've grown so much and to be quite honest its been a massive amount. I came in with knowing nothing about the military and now I could try and give you ever definition my husband throws at me. I'm no longer a boot wife! :) well right now he's in a place that he necessarily doesn't wanna be in but he's so close to coming home he could really careless where he is. But ima try and get some shut eye. Until next time kids. Good night.
Berna

Love you husband!

whoa whoa whoa

First off.. Ovulating sucks! And to those guys out there (including my husband) who thinks cramps are funny. Shame on you. Aunt flow is in full affect. :-) well things are looking up for the most part, I mean God is so good! He knows just how much I can handle, we can handle. That his hand is never too short, its always within His reach. I can't begin to thank God enough for ALL that he has done. I am so thankful that he knows our hearts, he knows out thoughts, and he know just what were going through. Thank you God, for you've been so faithful.

About 70% of this deployment=ACCOMPLISHED!!!!!!! Whoa. I cannot begin to explain my excitement and my joy right now. I can hardly contain it!!

Well I don't have much to say today. Except God is good and I love my husband beyond anything ever fathonable.

I love you babe-o
Xoxo

Your wife.

updates!

Well, my husband will be coming home very very soon! And I am so thrilled to have him home and be my husband :-). So excited and so overwhelmed with joy! My husband is my one and only and I cannot be more thankful to have him as my man. :-)
Things are making progress here in CAL and I think I'm finally starting to wing myself from my parents and everyone back home. Its been a drag me having to always go back and visit. No one really visits me so I think its good being on my own.
Well, short update. :-)
Bernadette

A Womans Worth

One Flaw In Women
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice..
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they
think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what
makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideas.
They give moral support to their
family and friends.
Women have vital things to say
and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

I'm amazed

Well its the 19th and we are on to month 5 of this deployment. Never have I thought I would make it this far without having a nervoud breakdown or two. These past 4 months have been an emotional roller coaster. Everything that I thought wouldn't happen, did. And that's ok. Because everything is panning out perfect and I know if I have a positive attitude about everything, it will all be perfect. My husband comes home soon. But not soon enough. Currently he's preparing to head to Australia! Yes. That lucky man. Well I know he'd trade that to come home in a heartbeat. His birthday is next week. And I hope he has a good birthday, (yes, without me) :-).

Well I'm in Zona for the next 9 days. Angelica the baby sister graduates high school on thurs so I'm here for that. I can't believe it. My mom and dad have all hs grads and now working on college degrees.

Update on vanessa. (Vanessa is my older sister). Well she is 8 weeks and 4 days pregnant and 220 days to go. Her first trimester is coming to an end! And on to her 2nd one! I take her to the drs tomm! Oh my I an so anxious to see the ultrasound. So excited!

But nothing more to update, until tomm kiddos. Goodnight

I love you babe-o

The wife. Bern

its been forever and a day

So its been a while that I've updated this silly thing. Well everything is going absolutely fabulous! I have such an amazing husband. I'm quite delighted to have him in my life. It wouldn't be the same without him by my side, in my thoughts or in my prayers. He is my forever perfect man.

Well. Me and the husband finally started web caming it! And its quite awesome. Just seeing his smile makes my heart melt. I wish I could just touch his face and kiss him.I just touch the screen and wish he could feel my hands :-)

Well I don't have much time to update! I will update again verrrry soon!

I LOVE my husband more than words could possibly express

The words to it. since I know he doesnt understand. :-)


I went* walking through streets soaked in oblivion
I went through parks with ghosts and fallen angels
I went without light, I went without sun,
I went without a feeling, I went dying.
I went flying over the sea on broken wings.



Oh love, you appeared in my life and you cured my wounds
Oh love, you are my moon, you are my sun, you are my bread of every day.



You appeared with your light
No, never leave, oh, don't leave, no
You are the glory us both until death



In a world of illusion
I was hopeless
I was abandoned
I lived without feelings
But (then) you came


Oh love, you are my religion
You are light, you are my sun
Open your heart, open your heart
---------------------------------

So long ago, my heart*,
I lived in pain, in oblivion
Oh love, you are my blessing, my religion
You are my sun that cures the cold


You appeared with your light,
No, no, no, don't abandon me
No, never, my love
Glory of us both
You are sun, you are my all
You are blessing.


I will live forever by your side with your light
I will die by your side
You are glory and blessing


You are my blessing*
You are my religion


You are my eternity
And even my salvation


I had nothing
And today I have you with glory
With glory, with glory
My love (x5)



You are my blessing
You are my light, you are my sun.

Mixed feelings can just ruin your day

Alright so today was going good.. and out of no where my sister Vanessa said she had to tell me something.. so first thing I thought was oh man something is wrong... well she told me to go away from everyone so I could be alone.. well she sent me a picture message. and the picture message was a picture of a pregnancy test that showed pregnant!!! My sister is pregnant! and I am so happy for her and my brother in law.. this is prefect.. they just bought a house that should be done sometime in July/August. and I really couldnt be any more happy. She is so excited but so scared at the same time. But I am happy!

I will posts updates when they come.. but there is a picture of exactly what their kitchen is going to look like. .;-)

well after an eventful day.. (NOT) my husband is randomly online, on myspace and just decided to leave me a comment, but didnt feel the need to log on aim or yahoo messenger without me having to tell him? what the heck.. sometimes he just dont get that I literally wait hours and hours and days and weeks to hear from him. he is very inconsiderate and he does NOT realize it.. so its whatever at this point.. if he wants to continue acting like a douche bag that whatever. I dont even want to talk to him if hes going to act that way. .

I dont have anything else to say right now.