A love note to my baby girls swing.
Dearest, Fisher-Price My Little Snug-a-Bunny Swing, (LONG DANG name!)
I just wanted to say thank you and that I love you dearly. You have been so good to our family these last six months that I wanted to let you know that you are important piece to our families life :). I know some people would think that this is weird writing to you but this little letter is to prove to you our little token of appreciation. I know it might seem a little fast being that we have only really known you for 6 months but, we really cannot imagine our life without you.My life is better because of you. The soothing way about you and your soft “voice” that hums sweet, little lullabies to my baby makes my heart pitter patter. You’re so considerate – always offering to take the baby so I can get a break and maybe make myself a sandwich – you know the way to my heart. I know you’re not the best looking piece of furniture in my house but as of right now... I don’t care about looks. It’s what’s inside that counts – and inside of you lies a magical baby whisperer that more than makes up for the chunk of real estate you take up in my master bedroom (you do have a 25 lb. weight limit after all), but I just want to take advantage of every beautiful moment of this wonderful thing we have going while I can.
I’m so glad you’re in my life baby swing.
Signed,
Bernadette
Friday, March 16, 2012
A love letter to my babys swing... True Story
Friday, March 2, 2012
Newborn, Three-months, six-months....
For everyone who ever offered a class or written a book, article or website about breastfeeding should be drop kicked and punched in the face. No one can fully understand breastfeeding fully until the actually commit to it. To many, people think its simple to just "put baby/latch on boob"... to be honest there is much more that goes into the whole breastfeeding thing.
Now that I’ve been breastfeeding for six months, I can see that there are many different stages to breastfeeding. And I’m sure there are many more to come in the months that follow!
Here is what I’ve experienced so far…
Having a newborn baby:
I remember when I first started this nursing venture when my daughter was immediately born.. and man she knew exactly what to do. I never had any problem with her feeding but for a beginner that business HURT like a mo fo. It starts out extremely painful and uncomfortable, engorged boobs, cracked nipples, and milk is spraying everywhere. For new moms like me, you get confused and you have no idea if the baby is getting enough milk or how long you should feed them at a time. Your body is slowing trying to get back into the change of returning to normal, your hormones are out of control and you become emotional when you stare into your new child's eyes. And at that moment being able to provide the nutrition your child needs gives you so much satisfaction as a mother. When I was on maternity leave all I did was pick my nursing spot, my bed; and I had my water, cell phone, remotes and lights off and enjoyed my whole day doing nothing except bonding with my little milk monster.
Having a Three-Month-Old:
When having a three-month old you kinda sorta get the hang of nursing on demand, night time, at dinner and even in church... for me anyway. At this point you got more of a schedule down and now were doing anywhere between 15-20 Min's on each boob. I think we got this whole breastfeeding down.. did me and little girl master this? I think not... but I do love is when she occasionally looks at me with the most biggest smile on her face... she knows how to melt my heart like no other.
Having a Six-Month-Old:
Wow, its now turning into a bit of a challenge. With teeth coming in, her grinding is becoming a nightmare!. I think she thinks I am now supposed to be used as a teething _ _ _ _ ? something? haha. She has obviously become way more mobile meaning I have to watch for her pinching, scratching and her moving her legs. Right now she has a thing with pulling my ears especially my NOSE! By moving legs I mean she now does this thing where she has to grab her foot and shake her leg. It is quite funny to watch. Also I may add that any noise will cause her to have to see what happen which results in her often yanking me with her.. not cool at all. Now days we have to have all TV's off and more in a darker setting for her to keep her mind on eating. oh and if she hears her dads voice she looks for him, waiting for him to come up so she can smile at him.
This is all I got for now. I like to make people smile and giggle... because I know I am not the only one who experiences these things while breastfeeding. :) My next post will be in another 3 months! :)
Now that I’ve been breastfeeding for six months, I can see that there are many different stages to breastfeeding. And I’m sure there are many more to come in the months that follow!
Here is what I’ve experienced so far…
Having a newborn baby:
I remember when I first started this nursing venture when my daughter was immediately born.. and man she knew exactly what to do. I never had any problem with her feeding but for a beginner that business HURT like a mo fo. It starts out extremely painful and uncomfortable, engorged boobs, cracked nipples, and milk is spraying everywhere. For new moms like me, you get confused and you have no idea if the baby is getting enough milk or how long you should feed them at a time. Your body is slowing trying to get back into the change of returning to normal, your hormones are out of control and you become emotional when you stare into your new child's eyes. And at that moment being able to provide the nutrition your child needs gives you so much satisfaction as a mother. When I was on maternity leave all I did was pick my nursing spot, my bed; and I had my water, cell phone, remotes and lights off and enjoyed my whole day doing nothing except bonding with my little milk monster.
Having a Three-Month-Old:
When having a three-month old you kinda sorta get the hang of nursing on demand, night time, at dinner and even in church... for me anyway. At this point you got more of a schedule down and now were doing anywhere between 15-20 Min's on each boob. I think we got this whole breastfeeding down.. did me and little girl master this? I think not... but I do love is when she occasionally looks at me with the most biggest smile on her face... she knows how to melt my heart like no other.
Having a Six-Month-Old:
Wow, its now turning into a bit of a challenge. With teeth coming in, her grinding is becoming a nightmare!. I think she thinks I am now supposed to be used as a teething _ _ _ _ ? something? haha. She has obviously become way more mobile meaning I have to watch for her pinching, scratching and her moving her legs. Right now she has a thing with pulling my ears especially my NOSE! By moving legs I mean she now does this thing where she has to grab her foot and shake her leg. It is quite funny to watch. Also I may add that any noise will cause her to have to see what happen which results in her often yanking me with her.. not cool at all. Now days we have to have all TV's off and more in a darker setting for her to keep her mind on eating. oh and if she hears her dads voice she looks for him, waiting for him to come up so she can smile at him.
This is all I got for now. I like to make people smile and giggle... because I know I am not the only one who experiences these things while breastfeeding. :) My next post will be in another 3 months! :)
Thursday, February 9, 2012
My Love, Hate relationship with Breastfeeding & Pumping
I'm beginning to get quite irritated with all these pumps, bottles, nipples, bottle caps, pump bottles and all those other accessories that are needed to feed and supply for my daughter. I get annoyed defrosting milk, storing milk, pumping milk.. figuring out if milk went good or bad... that's all too much for me, especially when I work full time, as does Derek AND he goes to school full time. I took an extra day up at church, now going Weds to be apart of the prayer team.. WHILE doing things throughout the week AFTER work gets a little exhausting.. I kid you not. Sometimes I wish I could be a stay at home wife/mom... but the other part of me thanks GOD that I have the ability to work and provide and pull my own weight.
When it comes to pumping I literally feel like a cow being milked when I sit down, but I know it is something that I have to do.. frequently. I take my pump with me EVERY PLACE I GO!. it gets tiring sometimes, but it is something that I have to do, for this girl right here. (Hence the shirt, which I LOVE).
Zyana-Lee is growing everyday, and by growing I mean mentally and physically. And it SCARES me. Today marks my almost-to-five-months-for-breastfeeding. ALMOST SILVER BOOBIES... For those of you who want to know what I mean by 'Silver boobs' find out HERE And I must say that I am so excited that I have made it thus far. The first few weeks of Zyanas life made my womanhood a nightmare. I had no problems latching.. just producing. Almost to the point of me just giving up and giving into the EVIL. Formula. It was heartbreaking, to say the least to think that I'd have to give up and find other means of feeding her.
Pride is something that I feel like I can allow, considering that every day is an awesome milestone in breastfeeding. Recently my breastfeeding relationship has become very.... love-hate. One minute I love it and the next minute I am pissed off about something having to do with it. Like.... time, and leaking boobies. LOL Am I going to stop? or give up? Nope, but man some days it just feels nice to vent a little about it... right?
HATE: Leaking
Some days.. I leak. Mostly in my sleep. Those stupid breast pads don't work for nothing. Mostly, I just hate them.
HATE: Pumping
I really hate pumping, its so freaking time consuming. Throughout my day I pump. Just at work I pump 4 times, sometimes at home I pump about the same. I mostly hate it because I have to lug this big ol black leather over the shoulder bag.. When people ask me what it is, my response is, "its a laptop bag"... Not to mention it totally makes me feel like a cow. Literally. :)
LOVE: Bonding
There is absolutely nothing more precious to look down and see my little girl get chunky. :) I'd have to say that nursing is one of the best feelings in the world.
LOVE: Stored milk.
The inventor who made storage bags for milk should be given a nice hefty check! The fact that I can pump and freeze it for a later date is just amazing to me. Or when I'm not with Zyana, Derek can feed her with that stored milk. Recently, we began mixing cereal with it. and she HATES IT that way. :)
LOVE: Weight Loss
For me, thankfully I was all belly. Although still a little squishy my face SURE has shrunk. Other areas are still in progress :)
I know this isn't true for all breastfeeding moms, but man...Breastfeeding for me has been one of the most easiest ways for me to loose weight. without doing anything! It's been 4 months since Zyana has been born and I've lost close to 40 pounds. :)
LOVE: I MADE ALL THAT CHUB!
My daughter has rolls, rolls, and more rolls. I just don't see why there are skinny babies, FEED THE BABY! (I know there are some health problems that prevent babies from gaining weight. ) ~ :) lol. It is OKAY for a baby to be fat and chunky!.
Here's Zyana-Lee. Hence the leg ROLLS. :) Don't mind the scary face. LOL
Knowing that I AM the reason that my daughter is healthy motivates me to continue to breastfeed. Those adorable little rolls and baby cellulite was made by me! I MADE THOSE ROLLS! My breast milk made those adorable little roles of cuteness. BEST FEELING EVER!
When it comes to pumping I literally feel like a cow being milked when I sit down, but I know it is something that I have to do.. frequently. I take my pump with me EVERY PLACE I GO!. it gets tiring sometimes, but it is something that I have to do, for this girl right here. (Hence the shirt, which I LOVE).
Zyana-Lee is growing everyday, and by growing I mean mentally and physically. And it SCARES me. Today marks my almost-to-five-months-for-breastfeeding. ALMOST SILVER BOOBIES... For those of you who want to know what I mean by 'Silver boobs' find out HERE And I must say that I am so excited that I have made it thus far. The first few weeks of Zyanas life made my womanhood a nightmare. I had no problems latching.. just producing. Almost to the point of me just giving up and giving into the EVIL. Formula. It was heartbreaking, to say the least to think that I'd have to give up and find other means of feeding her.
Pride is something that I feel like I can allow, considering that every day is an awesome milestone in breastfeeding. Recently my breastfeeding relationship has become very.... love-hate. One minute I love it and the next minute I am pissed off about something having to do with it. Like.... time, and leaking boobies. LOL Am I going to stop? or give up? Nope, but man some days it just feels nice to vent a little about it... right?
HATE: Leaking
Some days.. I leak. Mostly in my sleep. Those stupid breast pads don't work for nothing. Mostly, I just hate them.
HATE: Pumping
I really hate pumping, its so freaking time consuming. Throughout my day I pump. Just at work I pump 4 times, sometimes at home I pump about the same. I mostly hate it because I have to lug this big ol black leather over the shoulder bag.. When people ask me what it is, my response is, "its a laptop bag"... Not to mention it totally makes me feel like a cow. Literally. :)
LOVE: Bonding
There is absolutely nothing more precious to look down and see my little girl get chunky. :) I'd have to say that nursing is one of the best feelings in the world.
LOVE: Stored milk.
The inventor who made storage bags for milk should be given a nice hefty check! The fact that I can pump and freeze it for a later date is just amazing to me. Or when I'm not with Zyana, Derek can feed her with that stored milk. Recently, we began mixing cereal with it. and she HATES IT that way. :)
LOVE: Weight Loss
For me, thankfully I was all belly. Although still a little squishy my face SURE has shrunk. Other areas are still in progress :)
I know this isn't true for all breastfeeding moms, but man...Breastfeeding for me has been one of the most easiest ways for me to loose weight. without doing anything! It's been 4 months since Zyana has been born and I've lost close to 40 pounds. :)
LOVE: I MADE ALL THAT CHUB!
My daughter has rolls, rolls, and more rolls. I just don't see why there are skinny babies, FEED THE BABY! (I know there are some health problems that prevent babies from gaining weight. ) ~ :) lol. It is OKAY for a baby to be fat and chunky!.
Here's Zyana-Lee. Hence the leg ROLLS. :) Don't mind the scary face. LOL
Knowing that I AM the reason that my daughter is healthy motivates me to continue to breastfeed. Those adorable little rolls and baby cellulite was made by me! I MADE THOSE ROLLS! My breast milk made those adorable little roles of cuteness. BEST FEELING EVER!
Monday, January 16, 2012
This is Motherhood
Zyana is one month old.
This is Motherhood.. It is life in fast forward. The moment you give birth life suddenly feels like it moves so fast that you can barely breathe, take a moment to relax and soak it all in. Zyana has grown so much within these last 120 days that it makes me somewhat a little; on the side sad knowing how fast time is actually flying by. Knowing each milestone that we pass is a milestone that has come and gone, awaiting for the next move, giggle, cry, poopy diapy, shots, roll overs she'll have.I just want to wrap her up in my arms, inhale her sweetness, kiss her, love on her and pause time. I just want to drown myself in her love, forever.
I've added some photos of her.. mostly of her sleeping and smiling. I kinda think I am a little overly obsessed with taking pictures of her when she sleeps. :) But I cannot help it. she is beautiful and I want to share her beauty with the world.
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
100 Things about ME
I have been sitting at work thinking of what I could write in my blog and the only thing I could come up with is things about me (the obvious and the not-so-obvious) things people know/ don't know about me. I made a "100 things about me", last Feb.. you can see it HERE
So here is my 2012 list. :)
1. I'm 25 years old. And my birthday is 11/03 and I absolutely hate it when people tell me that I'm "Scorpio". I don't believe in astrology, never will.
2. I love Jesus Christ with ALL my heart.
3. I'm married to a wonderful white boy named Derek Ray, who is 24 years old. (The White boy part is the obvious. LOL)
4. We have a beautiful little baby girl named Zyana-Lee Grace Gonzalez, and her name means "Blessing from Heaven". We named her after Derek’s grandmother Ann Lee who was born into this crazy world on September 25, 2011.
5. I was a Navy girl friend for 1 year, then turned Navy wife for 2 years, now turned civilian wife. I prefer Navy wife over civilian wife any day.
6. My husband and I have served two back to back deployments, Afghanistan, and I learned throughout the times he was gone to be the best wife I could ever be.
7. I take pride in knowing that I am one of the very few women who could say that their spouse served this country, and I do stand a little taller. :).
8. I am a middle child of 3 girls. Yes, 3 girls. Oh my poor dad.
9. My sister’s names are Vanessa Sanchez who is 27 and Angelica Rodriguez who just proudly turned 21.
10. My parent’s names are Steve and Maria Anguis. And God granted to me the best parents ever. Steve, (to the world's standards is actually my "step-dad" but to ME. He is OUR DAD.) My biological dad resides in Greely, Colorado and his life consists of drinking alcohol throughout every single day of his life, and has a girlfriend named Cassie who he refuses to marry, because he is still secretly in love with my mom. (I know, I know kinda daytime novellas)
11. I have 2 amazingly, absolutely beautiful nieces. Mariah Adrielle who just turned 2 years old. And Naomi Adriana who is a few months shy of 1 years old.
12. Before they were born, I never had any desire for children. Ever. Then God changed my heart. Forever. Now I want like 4 more kids.. How in the heck does it go from wanting none to at least wanting 5. :)
13. And now....I absolutely LOVE being a mother. It has been such an amazing time and I know it'll only get better.
14. I EBF... for someone who doesn't know what that means, it means, I exclusively breastfeed. And I like it.
15. I just graduated from the University of Phoenix receiving my Bachelors degree in Business.
16. I have a few pet peeves. They include dirty bathroom tubs, sticky dirty tile floors, dirty dishes left in the kitchen sink, slow drivers and people who bite their nails.
17. Even though I am a woman, I cannot STAND shopping, especially for myself.
18. I LOVE shoes and BOOTS. My favorite shoe brands are Nine West, Bakers Shoes, Guess and ALDO.
19. In May of 2011, Derek and I bought our first house, and that was one of the biggest accomplishments that we have made thus far.
20. I'm a little on the obsessive side when it comes to reading blogs.
21. I love earrings. I own probably 60 + earrings. It’s sad that I can only wear 1 pair a day. :/
22. My Favorite movies of all time include, but are in no particular order:
The STAR WARS collection.
Glitter.
Win a date with Tad Hamilton.
Joseph.
The Bodyguard.
Good Fellas.
Ben Hur.
23. My Favorite actor is Terrance Howard. And my favorite actress is Natalie Portman.
My secret celebrity crushes are:
Denzel Washington
Lil Wayne
50 Cent
Gerard Butler
Natalie Portman
Scarlett Johansen
Mila Kunis
24. My Favorite colors are green, brown, and black. I hate purple and pink, even though those are pretty much the only colors my daughter wears.
25. My favorite brand of makeup is Urban Decay. That’s it, that’s all I'll wear.
26. I LOVE Reno 911 and JERSEY SHORE!
27. My favorite brands of clothing are New York & Company, Guess, Old Navy, Abercrombie & Fitch
28. My favorite stores are New York & Company, Old Navy, Ross, Target and Dillards.
29. I enjoy Nascar.
30. I love long hair and pretty nails.
31. I have a thing for big lifted trucks and nice shiny rims.
32. I love painting, decorating, water coloring and scrapbooking. Sadly, I don’t nearly do any of them as much as I’d like to.
33. My husband and I teach the Jr. Youth at our church. We definitely have a passion for younger kids and teaching them the love of Christ.
34. My favorite bands and singers of all time include Michael Jackson and The Bee Gees and Queen.
35. I’m a very organized person, and everything in my house is labeled from my shoe boxes to my important documents.
36. I like to push people to do better. There is nothing more awesome than pushing the people you love towards greatness.
37. I have an awesome family, by awesome I mean my parents, sisters, brother in laws, and nieces. Everyone else, extended wise are a bunch of the most dysfunctional people I have ever known. I thank God that me, my sisters or my mom don’t fight or argue to the point of not talking.
38. I have a thing for Bath and Body works. Their candles are to DIE for.
39. Candles in general are one of the most things I buy.
40. I have a dog, named Molly. She’s a Lhasa Apso and likes to piss everywhere she’s not supposed to.
41. I like luxurious things. Like Cadillac’s and Land Rovers.
42. I love clean floors and sanitized kitchen counters.
43. My shoe size is 6.
44. I started my blog in 2008 when my husband was on his first deployment. Every day I would write in it and he would read it when he could to know how things were going on this side of the world.
45. I have a crazy, just a little, tiny obsession with makeup. I LOVE makeup, more of a fan of eye shadows and eyeliners.
46. I don't like flushing the toilet. And it BOTHERS my husband. (Yes, I am WEIRD and OPEN LOL)
47. I love to make people laugh.
48. I'm a sucker for horror movies, even the bad ones that feature Paris Hilton (The Wax House).
49. I love pizza and wings. It's better than dropping 60+ on a nice dinner. :)
50. Sometimes I can be a bit over emotional. Shut up, don't judge.
51. My favorite book growing up was, "If you give a mouse a cookie"
52. I’ll write any day over reading. I don't get how I earned a bachelor’s degree; cause it involved A LOT of reading.
53. I love my American Express card. Yes, a weird fact but I LOVE points!
54. I'm actually kind of a neat freak. It just...comes and goes. Sometimes I clean all night, just so I can wake up to a squeaky clean house.
55. Anything seafood or fish related GROSSES me out.
56. If I could have any voice narrate my life it would be Anthony Hopkins or Liam Neeson. I LOVE their voices!
57. The only drug I ever tried was a cigarette. One time. It was the most disgusting thing I ever tasted.
58. I sing like a maniac in my car. It makes me feel like a rock star, even when I can't hit all the notes.
59. I hate being a woman 1 week out of every month. Ha.
60. I have a serious shoe fetish with extremely high heels and extremely pointy toes. So hot. But no, I have not mastered walking gracefully in them.
61. One of my guilty pleasures is Hot Cheetos with lemon or Butterfingers. mmmm.
62. People who make me laugh fascinate me. Especially when it’s a sarcastic or caustic remark that does it.
63. I LOVE potatoes. Bad. Like I gotta have something potato related every week!
64. I like gardening, but everything I have ever attempted to grow has died.
65. I love Christmas ornaments.
66. When I was younger, maybe 8. My sister Vanessa and I were playing in a park (apparently we weren't supposed to be at that park because these black girls got mad and told us to leave. Of course, me being me. I didn't leave) and I got JUMPED! by 10, yes 10 black girls. While my sister Vanessa took off her shoes and ran HOME!!! She left me! It wasn't funny at the time, but now when we talk about it, it is hilarious!
67. I love Coffee! and coffee creamer. Irish crème, French vanilla. mmm.
68. I hate ANY type of Pie. Pie is gross!
69. When I was younger my dad let us watch Children of the Corn, Freddy Kruger and Hell Raiser. Couldn't sleep for months.
70. I love photography, though I’m not talented to take pictures. I will jump in and have my picture taken any day! :)
1. I'm 25 years old. And my birthday is 11/03 and I absolutely hate it when people tell me that I'm "Scorpio". I don't believe in astrology, never will.
2. I love Jesus Christ with ALL my heart.
3. I'm married to a wonderful white boy named Derek Ray, who is 24 years old. (The White boy part is the obvious. LOL)
4. We have a beautiful little baby girl named Zyana-Lee Grace Gonzalez, and her name means "Blessing from Heaven". We named her after Derek’s grandmother Ann Lee who was born into this crazy world on September 25, 2011.
5. I was a Navy girl friend for 1 year, then turned Navy wife for 2 years, now turned civilian wife. I prefer Navy wife over civilian wife any day.
6. My husband and I have served two back to back deployments, Afghanistan, and I learned throughout the times he was gone to be the best wife I could ever be.
7. I take pride in knowing that I am one of the very few women who could say that their spouse served this country, and I do stand a little taller. :).
8. I am a middle child of 3 girls. Yes, 3 girls. Oh my poor dad.
9. My sister’s names are Vanessa Sanchez who is 27 and Angelica Rodriguez who just proudly turned 21.
10. My parent’s names are Steve and Maria Anguis. And God granted to me the best parents ever. Steve, (to the world's standards is actually my "step-dad" but to ME. He is OUR DAD.) My biological dad resides in Greely, Colorado and his life consists of drinking alcohol throughout every single day of his life, and has a girlfriend named Cassie who he refuses to marry, because he is still secretly in love with my mom. (I know, I know kinda daytime novellas)
11. I have 2 amazingly, absolutely beautiful nieces. Mariah Adrielle who just turned 2 years old. And Naomi Adriana who is a few months shy of 1 years old.
12. Before they were born, I never had any desire for children. Ever. Then God changed my heart. Forever. Now I want like 4 more kids.. How in the heck does it go from wanting none to at least wanting 5. :)
13. And now....I absolutely LOVE being a mother. It has been such an amazing time and I know it'll only get better.
14. I EBF... for someone who doesn't know what that means, it means, I exclusively breastfeed. And I like it.
15. I just graduated from the University of Phoenix receiving my Bachelors degree in Business.
16. I have a few pet peeves. They include dirty bathroom tubs, sticky dirty tile floors, dirty dishes left in the kitchen sink, slow drivers and people who bite their nails.
17. Even though I am a woman, I cannot STAND shopping, especially for myself.
18. I LOVE shoes and BOOTS. My favorite shoe brands are Nine West, Bakers Shoes, Guess and ALDO.
19. In May of 2011, Derek and I bought our first house, and that was one of the biggest accomplishments that we have made thus far.
20. I'm a little on the obsessive side when it comes to reading blogs.
21. I love earrings. I own probably 60 + earrings. It’s sad that I can only wear 1 pair a day. :/
22. My Favorite movies of all time include, but are in no particular order:
The STAR WARS collection.
Glitter.
Win a date with Tad Hamilton.
Joseph.
The Bodyguard.
Good Fellas.
Ben Hur.
23. My Favorite actor is Terrance Howard. And my favorite actress is Natalie Portman.
My secret celebrity crushes are:
Denzel Washington
Lil Wayne
50 Cent
Gerard Butler
Natalie Portman
Scarlett Johansen
Mila Kunis
24. My Favorite colors are green, brown, and black. I hate purple and pink, even though those are pretty much the only colors my daughter wears.
25. My favorite brand of makeup is Urban Decay. That’s it, that’s all I'll wear.
26. I LOVE Reno 911 and JERSEY SHORE!
27. My favorite brands of clothing are New York & Company, Guess, Old Navy, Abercrombie & Fitch
28. My favorite stores are New York & Company, Old Navy, Ross, Target and Dillards.
29. I enjoy Nascar.
30. I love long hair and pretty nails.
31. I have a thing for big lifted trucks and nice shiny rims.
32. I love painting, decorating, water coloring and scrapbooking. Sadly, I don’t nearly do any of them as much as I’d like to.
33. My husband and I teach the Jr. Youth at our church. We definitely have a passion for younger kids and teaching them the love of Christ.
34. My favorite bands and singers of all time include Michael Jackson and The Bee Gees and Queen.
35. I’m a very organized person, and everything in my house is labeled from my shoe boxes to my important documents.
36. I like to push people to do better. There is nothing more awesome than pushing the people you love towards greatness.
37. I have an awesome family, by awesome I mean my parents, sisters, brother in laws, and nieces. Everyone else, extended wise are a bunch of the most dysfunctional people I have ever known. I thank God that me, my sisters or my mom don’t fight or argue to the point of not talking.
38. I have a thing for Bath and Body works. Their candles are to DIE for.
39. Candles in general are one of the most things I buy.
40. I have a dog, named Molly. She’s a Lhasa Apso and likes to piss everywhere she’s not supposed to.
41. I like luxurious things. Like Cadillac’s and Land Rovers.
42. I love clean floors and sanitized kitchen counters.
43. My shoe size is 6.
44. I started my blog in 2008 when my husband was on his first deployment. Every day I would write in it and he would read it when he could to know how things were going on this side of the world.
45. I have a crazy, just a little, tiny obsession with makeup. I LOVE makeup, more of a fan of eye shadows and eyeliners.
46. I don't like flushing the toilet. And it BOTHERS my husband. (Yes, I am WEIRD and OPEN LOL)
47. I love to make people laugh.
48. I'm a sucker for horror movies, even the bad ones that feature Paris Hilton (The Wax House).
49. I love pizza and wings. It's better than dropping 60+ on a nice dinner. :)
50. Sometimes I can be a bit over emotional. Shut up, don't judge.
51. My favorite book growing up was, "If you give a mouse a cookie"
52. I’ll write any day over reading. I don't get how I earned a bachelor’s degree; cause it involved A LOT of reading.
53. I love my American Express card. Yes, a weird fact but I LOVE points!
54. I'm actually kind of a neat freak. It just...comes and goes. Sometimes I clean all night, just so I can wake up to a squeaky clean house.
55. Anything seafood or fish related GROSSES me out.
56. If I could have any voice narrate my life it would be Anthony Hopkins or Liam Neeson. I LOVE their voices!
57. The only drug I ever tried was a cigarette. One time. It was the most disgusting thing I ever tasted.
58. I sing like a maniac in my car. It makes me feel like a rock star, even when I can't hit all the notes.
59. I hate being a woman 1 week out of every month. Ha.
60. I have a serious shoe fetish with extremely high heels and extremely pointy toes. So hot. But no, I have not mastered walking gracefully in them.
61. One of my guilty pleasures is Hot Cheetos with lemon or Butterfingers. mmmm.
62. People who make me laugh fascinate me. Especially when it’s a sarcastic or caustic remark that does it.
63. I LOVE potatoes. Bad. Like I gotta have something potato related every week!
64. I like gardening, but everything I have ever attempted to grow has died.
65. I love Christmas ornaments.
66. When I was younger, maybe 8. My sister Vanessa and I were playing in a park (apparently we weren't supposed to be at that park because these black girls got mad and told us to leave. Of course, me being me. I didn't leave) and I got JUMPED! by 10, yes 10 black girls. While my sister Vanessa took off her shoes and ran HOME!!! She left me! It wasn't funny at the time, but now when we talk about it, it is hilarious!
67. I love Coffee! and coffee creamer. Irish crème, French vanilla. mmm.
68. I hate ANY type of Pie. Pie is gross!
69. When I was younger my dad let us watch Children of the Corn, Freddy Kruger and Hell Raiser. Couldn't sleep for months.
70. I love photography, though I’m not talented to take pictures. I will jump in and have my picture taken any day! :)
71. I almost died, once. Due to asthma. I developed bronchitis and pneumonia at once. It was a sad day.
72. If I had any super powers I'd like to be invisible and read people’s minds.
73. My favorite fruits are pomegranates and plums. Occasionally green grapes.
74. Me and my husband share the same middle name, Ray. Crazy but cool.
75. I hate country music.
76. Though I ****NEVER*** wanted to get married, my wedding date was November 28th, 2008. And truthfully, my husband has been a good man..(other than my daddy!)
77. When I write I hold my pencil/pen so tight I get cramps in my hand.
78. I have a thing about spices/ herbs.. And I am addicted to garlic.
79. I can't go a morning without coffee.
80. I take 5 medications a night. Including the good ole birth control pill.. it better not fail me, LOL
81. I love scarves, even though I HATE turtlenecks or anything around my neck for that matter.
82. I absolutely LOVE being an auntie. I can give them soda, chips, cookies and teach them to say mean things and then give them back to my sister and brother-in-law. My brother-in-law says he can't wait until Zyana gets older so he can do the same thing. Can we say PAY BACK?
83. I enjoy Christmas. Decorating and getting all into the Christmas spirit just makes me happy. Now that we have babies in the family... Christmas is all about them. and I LOVE that.
84. I'm not a big fan of winter, actually I HATE the cold.
85. I addicted to the game Family Fued.
86. I don't like going to the movies, but I do enjoy nice dining.
87. I Love the smells of gas, rain, and beer.. even though I don't drink it. It just smells good. Sometimes I wish I could take a bath in it. LOL.
88. I'm not good at taking compliments well.
89. I don't have good hand writing. I have to write in cursive to make it look decent.
90. I like to text rather than speak on the phone.
91. The only kind of sunglasses I will wear is aviator ones.
92. I think my daughter, and my nieces are the most beautiful little girls I have ever met. But I AM bias.
93. My answer to every question I have is google. I always say, "lets just google it" haha.
94. I can, but then I can't wait to have another baby.
95. If anyone buys be a gift, I always tell them a watch. I like Guess watches... just sayin :)
96. My dream vacation to go anywhere in the world would be Egypt.
97. The first word I learned to spell was: Transportation.
98. I love pillows. I'll choose cuddling with a pillow over my husband any day. Kinda sad huh? LOL
99. I'm kinda cynical and sometimes complacent.
100. My name is Bernadette and I’m a bit on the sarcastic side. And most times I speak too much, hurt people’s feelings, step out of my bounds. But one thing I know is that I’m true to myself. I’m judged for who I am, how I look, and what I believe. But that’s okay to me, because one thing is for sure. I will probably be the most honest/blunt/outspoken person you’ll ever come across.. I'm a wife, a daughter, a mother, a sister and an aunt. I'm honest and open. I enjoy the simple things in life like having my family around chomping on pizza and wings watching Joe Dirt for the hundredth time, all sitting around laughing like its a new movie to us. I cry, I laugh. Life gets hard, marriage has its up's and downs.. But this is me. :)
I can’t really think of anything else to add. But When I do I’ll update my list.
72. If I had any super powers I'd like to be invisible and read people’s minds.
73. My favorite fruits are pomegranates and plums. Occasionally green grapes.
74. Me and my husband share the same middle name, Ray. Crazy but cool.
75. I hate country music.
76. Though I ****NEVER*** wanted to get married, my wedding date was November 28th, 2008. And truthfully, my husband has been a good man..(other than my daddy!)
77. When I write I hold my pencil/pen so tight I get cramps in my hand.
78. I have a thing about spices/ herbs.. And I am addicted to garlic.
79. I can't go a morning without coffee.
80. I take 5 medications a night. Including the good ole birth control pill.. it better not fail me, LOL
81. I love scarves, even though I HATE turtlenecks or anything around my neck for that matter.
82. I absolutely LOVE being an auntie. I can give them soda, chips, cookies and teach them to say mean things and then give them back to my sister and brother-in-law. My brother-in-law says he can't wait until Zyana gets older so he can do the same thing. Can we say PAY BACK?
83. I enjoy Christmas. Decorating and getting all into the Christmas spirit just makes me happy. Now that we have babies in the family... Christmas is all about them. and I LOVE that.
84. I'm not a big fan of winter, actually I HATE the cold.
85. I addicted to the game Family Fued.
86. I don't like going to the movies, but I do enjoy nice dining.
87. I Love the smells of gas, rain, and beer.. even though I don't drink it. It just smells good. Sometimes I wish I could take a bath in it. LOL.
88. I'm not good at taking compliments well.
89. I don't have good hand writing. I have to write in cursive to make it look decent.
90. I like to text rather than speak on the phone.
91. The only kind of sunglasses I will wear is aviator ones.
92. I think my daughter, and my nieces are the most beautiful little girls I have ever met. But I AM bias.
93. My answer to every question I have is google. I always say, "lets just google it" haha.
94. I can, but then I can't wait to have another baby.
95. If anyone buys be a gift, I always tell them a watch. I like Guess watches... just sayin :)
96. My dream vacation to go anywhere in the world would be Egypt.
97. The first word I learned to spell was: Transportation.
98. I love pillows. I'll choose cuddling with a pillow over my husband any day. Kinda sad huh? LOL
99. I'm kinda cynical and sometimes complacent.
100. My name is Bernadette and I’m a bit on the sarcastic side. And most times I speak too much, hurt people’s feelings, step out of my bounds. But one thing I know is that I’m true to myself. I’m judged for who I am, how I look, and what I believe. But that’s okay to me, because one thing is for sure. I will probably be the most honest/blunt/outspoken person you’ll ever come across.. I'm a wife, a daughter, a mother, a sister and an aunt. I'm honest and open. I enjoy the simple things in life like having my family around chomping on pizza and wings watching Joe Dirt for the hundredth time, all sitting around laughing like its a new movie to us. I cry, I laugh. Life gets hard, marriage has its up's and downs.. But this is me. :)
I can’t really think of anything else to add. But When I do I’ll update my list.
Friday, December 30, 2011
2011: Got Pregnant, Bought a House, Had a Baby, Graduated College.. GOOD YEAR!
Looking back on 2011 and how much has changed I just smile. At the beginning of 2011, to be exact January 17th, 2011 was the day I found out I was pregnant. And I knew at that instant our life would never be the same. I look back and I remember exactly how I told Derek that I was pregnant and his face I will never forget; and that one face he has only made once in the 5 years we've been together, the face was actually a "oh crap" face. classic! With the start of a new year and a new pregnancy we tired as much as we could to plan everything out right for 2011. And we did.
Jumping ahead to May, We are now 5 months pregnant. And Derek had his 24th birthday on May 26th, and two days later we finally got the keys to our brand new house. Derek and I bought a brand new home, well new to us. it was built in 2008, and we purchased the house for pennies on the dollar, literally. Some will probably think that its junky because of the price we paid but the house is absolutely beautiful. Everything from the sinks to the light fixtures to the cabinets to the tile, to the elevation everything was UPGRADED. :) We really got blessed with this house, we started looking at houses with our realtor in the beginning of March and it took us two months and probably about 16 bids of different houses for us to finally find the right one. And to be honest when we looked at this house, I had this feeling that it was going to be ours. And it was. To thank God more, we were under budget with what we wanted to spend on a house, actually about $40K under budget. God has been so good to us. :) And it was absolutely EVERYTHING we wanted in a home. Derek got his garage, and I got my two living rooms. This was just the beginning of how God worked in our lives in 2011.
Jumping up to August, now 8 months pregnant and ready for our baby shower. Let me just say, (even though it was my shower) I have NEVER seen more gifts at any baby shower than mine. we got EVERYTHING that we asked for on our registry + MORE. My parents bought us the ENTIRE nursery furniture (crib, changing station and dresser). Derek's father bought us the stroller and car seat, Derek's mom bought the swing and rock and play (the SWING is the best thing EVER INVENTED!) My sister Vanessa bought us the pack and play, Derek's aunts bought us the mattress and other stuff. so much stuff I can't even remember all of it.. but again, We were blessed. And God again provided our every need. We were set and FINALLY ready for baby girl. :)
My mom and Derek began painting the baby's nursery. We ended up doing a lady bug theme and I wanted candy apple red on the walls, and Derek refused to allow me to have candy apple red because he wanted yellow. and we finally came to an agreement and did yellow and a softer shade of red, the baby's room is Sun Devil colors! ha ha.
Finally, we are in September, and September 9th was the last day of work for me and my maternity leave finally kicked in. My estimated due date was September 23rd and I wanted to work until mid September, Derek didn't allow it. :)
FINALLY the event that marked it all was on September 25th 2011. We finally welcomed our little angel:
Zyana-Lee Grace Gonzalez, her name means, "Blessing from Heaven"
At 10:02 AM
19 Inches in length
7 Pounds, 3.2 ounces
You can read my BIRTH STORY HERE
It is so crazy how life happens. She sure is a blessing to our lives and I thank God daily that he granted her to us for this time.
So as we were in the hospital waiting for Zyana's arrival plus post baby I was doing homework the whole time. Now we are November, on November 3rd I had my 25th birthday. Yikes. I am halfway to 50 years old. That makes me a little sad thinking about that. LOL. Well, another major event took place on November 12th, 2011. I FINALLY finished my Bachelors degree. Through the midst of it all I never lost focus of what I have always desired to be in my life. And I wont stop here. Just because there's a new baby in my life don't mean that I have to stop with my education. I will continue and wherever I end up, Hey I did it. :) The day of my graduation I wanted to make my mom and dad proud, and I did. To some, a bachelors degree isn't such a big deal, but to us.. its a huge thing. lol
Now here we are December. December was the month that I got knocked up in 2010. December 17th 2010 is the day the deed was done, (If that bothers you that I'm this open, stop reading my blog :)) LOL. Anyway, we had our very first Christmas with our first child here and it will never be the same again. And we are happy about that.
So this year has been by far, hands down AWESOME.
I got pregnant, bought a house, had a baby and graduated college. I'm very excited to see what 2012 brings. Maybe, just maybe Zyana will be a big sister :)
Jumping ahead to May, We are now 5 months pregnant. And Derek had his 24th birthday on May 26th, and two days later we finally got the keys to our brand new house. Derek and I bought a brand new home, well new to us. it was built in 2008, and we purchased the house for pennies on the dollar, literally. Some will probably think that its junky because of the price we paid but the house is absolutely beautiful. Everything from the sinks to the light fixtures to the cabinets to the tile, to the elevation everything was UPGRADED. :) We really got blessed with this house, we started looking at houses with our realtor in the beginning of March and it took us two months and probably about 16 bids of different houses for us to finally find the right one. And to be honest when we looked at this house, I had this feeling that it was going to be ours. And it was. To thank God more, we were under budget with what we wanted to spend on a house, actually about $40K under budget. God has been so good to us. :) And it was absolutely EVERYTHING we wanted in a home. Derek got his garage, and I got my two living rooms. This was just the beginning of how God worked in our lives in 2011.
Jumping up to August, now 8 months pregnant and ready for our baby shower. Let me just say, (even though it was my shower) I have NEVER seen more gifts at any baby shower than mine. we got EVERYTHING that we asked for on our registry + MORE. My parents bought us the ENTIRE nursery furniture (crib, changing station and dresser). Derek's father bought us the stroller and car seat, Derek's mom bought the swing and rock and play (the SWING is the best thing EVER INVENTED!) My sister Vanessa bought us the pack and play, Derek's aunts bought us the mattress and other stuff. so much stuff I can't even remember all of it.. but again, We were blessed. And God again provided our every need. We were set and FINALLY ready for baby girl. :)
My mom and Derek began painting the baby's nursery. We ended up doing a lady bug theme and I wanted candy apple red on the walls, and Derek refused to allow me to have candy apple red because he wanted yellow. and we finally came to an agreement and did yellow and a softer shade of red, the baby's room is Sun Devil colors! ha ha.
Finally, we are in September, and September 9th was the last day of work for me and my maternity leave finally kicked in. My estimated due date was September 23rd and I wanted to work until mid September, Derek didn't allow it. :)
FINALLY the event that marked it all was on September 25th 2011. We finally welcomed our little angel:
Zyana-Lee Grace Gonzalez, her name means, "Blessing from Heaven"
At 10:02 AM
19 Inches in length
7 Pounds, 3.2 ounces
You can read my BIRTH STORY HERE
It is so crazy how life happens. She sure is a blessing to our lives and I thank God daily that he granted her to us for this time.
So as we were in the hospital waiting for Zyana's arrival plus post baby I was doing homework the whole time. Now we are November, on November 3rd I had my 25th birthday. Yikes. I am halfway to 50 years old. That makes me a little sad thinking about that. LOL. Well, another major event took place on November 12th, 2011. I FINALLY finished my Bachelors degree. Through the midst of it all I never lost focus of what I have always desired to be in my life. And I wont stop here. Just because there's a new baby in my life don't mean that I have to stop with my education. I will continue and wherever I end up, Hey I did it. :) The day of my graduation I wanted to make my mom and dad proud, and I did. To some, a bachelors degree isn't such a big deal, but to us.. its a huge thing. lol
Now here we are December. December was the month that I got knocked up in 2010. December 17th 2010 is the day the deed was done, (If that bothers you that I'm this open, stop reading my blog :)) LOL. Anyway, we had our very first Christmas with our first child here and it will never be the same again. And we are happy about that.
So this year has been by far, hands down AWESOME.
I got pregnant, bought a house, had a baby and graduated college. I'm very excited to see what 2012 brings. Maybe, just maybe Zyana will be a big sister :)
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Baby Girl Zyana-Lee is 3 Months OLD!
I sit here in awe thinking that just 3 months ago my crazy little mini me was kicking me and taking my breath away.. now, shes here whenever I want to just get up and hold her and kiss her all over.
New facts:
Her ears are PIERCED!!!
Currently in size 0-3 months.
Wears size 1 diapers. Will be going to size 2 soon. tear.
Smiles non-stop. I mean, NON-STOP.
Knows what her hands are, and loves to have them in her mouth.
She farts like a grown man, literally. When she does fart I have to look over at Derek and ask if that were him or her. Seriously.
She finally met her grandma, AKA GG (Derek's Mom)
Loves breast milk. AND that stupid darn paci I said I would never give my kiddo.
Is beginning to be more talkative, whenever daddy talks to her she coos back. ALL the time, for me not so much.
When she hears her daddy's voice she stops and tries to find him and when she does, her smile is so big her little eyes practically close.
She still sleeps in the swing. We like her close.
She LOVES being swaddled. It's pretty much the only way she will fall asleep.
When she gets hungry, she cries. Wait, she screams like she is dying :)
Here she is... PEACE
New facts:
Her ears are PIERCED!!!
Currently in size 0-3 months.
Wears size 1 diapers. Will be going to size 2 soon. tear.
Smiles non-stop. I mean, NON-STOP.
Knows what her hands are, and loves to have them in her mouth.
She farts like a grown man, literally. When she does fart I have to look over at Derek and ask if that were him or her. Seriously.
She finally met her grandma, AKA GG (Derek's Mom)
Loves breast milk. AND that stupid darn paci I said I would never give my kiddo.
Is beginning to be more talkative, whenever daddy talks to her she coos back. ALL the time, for me not so much.
When she hears her daddy's voice she stops and tries to find him and when she does, her smile is so big her little eyes practically close.
She still sleeps in the swing. We like her close.
She LOVES being swaddled. It's pretty much the only way she will fall asleep.
When she gets hungry, she cries. Wait, she screams like she is dying :)
Here she is... PEACE
Friday, December 16, 2011
Look at what I found.
I always knew I had a dead beat for a real father but never did I expect to find such a bad track record, even just for the past two years. I was googling him just to see if we could find an address or a phone number to call him for Christmas or send him a card but my results weren't what I expected. I'm not even mad, I actually think its quite funny that someone so ignorant wouldn't learn their lesson. He's always been an alcoholic and unfortunately he chose alcoholism over family:
RODRIGUEZ, JULIO RAYMOND arrested:09/27/11 at 16:14
Arresting Agency: GREELEY POLICE DEPARTMENT CO0620200
Booking Number: 1110957 DOB: 08/05/64
Gender: Male
Custody Status
Arrested for: FUGITIVE OF JUSTICE - OTHER JURISDICTION / FTA CIVIL
Bail: $0.00
RODRIGUEZ, JULIO RAYMOND arrested:08/19/10 at 18:30
Arresting Agency: GREELEY POLICE DEPARTMENT CO0620200
Booking Number: 1009687 DOB: 08/05/64
Gender: Male
Custody Status
Arrested for: 16.19.103 FOJ OTHER / FTC DUR
Bail: $2,000.00
RODRIGUEZ, JULIO RAYMOND arrested:01/01/07 at 02:15
Arresting Agency: GREELEY POLICE DEPARTMENT CO0620200
Booking Number: 0700006 DOB: 08/05/64
Gender: Male
Arrested for: 42.2.206 HABITUAL TRAFFIC OFFENDER / 42.2.206 HABITUAL TR
Bail: $10,000.00
Arrested for: 42.4.1301.1.A DUI / 42.4.1301.1.A DUI
Bail: $0.00
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Christmas 2011 Family PICTURES (Pic overload) Enjoy!
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