Hello! It has been quite some time that I've been away from the blogging world. I've missed being able to write down my thoughts and share with some of you who read some of my writings. I'd like to start by saying that A LOT has changed in 5 months. And I'm happy to know that change is good, change is needed. Let me start off by saying that Derek and I are expecting baby # 2!!! Zyana-Lee is going to be a BIG sister to a baby BROTHER! We are due in late August and we were beyond shocked to know that we would be expecting again. We talked about trying again but, bang. It happened all within a month time. God is good, because the Lord does give you the desires of your heart, and I have to say that our desire was to have another and He is faithful because he finally gave us a boy. I am also pleased to announce that I am back in school. Working on the masters degree in psychology/professional counseling and though grad school is quite expensive I know that it is all worth the time and effort for our growing family. Besides the current news with a new pregnancy my little Zyana is a trip. Right now baby doll is at that stage where she repeats everything you say, so lately I've been trying to stop the words: crap, bs, dang it, oh man, what the!, and a few others.. Though their not bad words, they are bad habits to me and the last thing I want is my daugther picking up on those words.
Well, I plan to be back to the vlogging world. My time management is improving but I'd love to finally get on a good schedule with everything we all go. until next time,
Night!
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Monday, August 22, 2011
36 weeks AND more
Well this marks 36 weeks this week, and although we both think she might be coming soon she is definately going to come when she is done roasting. a little stubborn already!? :) I'm okay with that, I just ready to be done with being pregnant. I haven't had a hard pregnancy I just want to fit into regular clothes again, breathe normal, not feel like a mini beluga, and tired all the time. :) I am now going to be seen weekly by Dr. Howard. This friday is my next appointment so hopefully baby girl is locked and loaded and ready.
Other news.
ORDERING invites, cap and gown, and all that other stuff that I have to get for graduation is here. I guess you can say that God really works in the favor of his people. I am so thankful that a few weeks after Zyana is here I will be DONE with MY BACHELORS! Praise God that he has made a way that I finally finished with this degree. Talk about favor.. I missed my graduation deadline in June to walk with my class, so I have to wait until November to actually walk, which I am okay with.
Not really anything else to update on.. this is short and sweet.
Other news.
ORDERING invites, cap and gown, and all that other stuff that I have to get for graduation is here. I guess you can say that God really works in the favor of his people. I am so thankful that a few weeks after Zyana is here I will be DONE with MY BACHELORS! Praise God that he has made a way that I finally finished with this degree. Talk about favor.. I missed my graduation deadline in June to walk with my class, so I have to wait until November to actually walk, which I am okay with.
Not really anything else to update on.. this is short and sweet.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
It's MAY!!!
My my my. I was thinking about last May.. so much has changed since then. Last May I was re-adjusting my life, again. Derek was on month 2 of his Afghanistan deployment and I was home feeling sorry for myself. just kidding. :) And I was just anxiously waiting for that deployment to be DONE with. Thank God that I don't have to worry any longer about deployment or being apart from my husband. Well much has changed since last year, and looking at this month it sure has. We are officially ALMOST to month 5 of this pregnancy. and in 1 week we close on our HOUSE! How exciting to know that we did it ALL on our own without ANYONE's help. Amazing to see how God works when your life is devoted soley to him. I often have people ask me how I do it. Wait, "How I do what?" I ask.. they say you have everything. WRONG. I am just beyond blessed my My Savior and anytime anyone asks me I always, without a doubt give God glory because he has been the only one who has made my life successful. and without God, whoa.. I don't even want to know where I'd be. Anyways, Besides being pregnant, buying a house and all that jazz, I must also throw in the mix that I will, again be a college graduate. This time with a bachelors. I'll have my BA in Business Management with emphasis on global business. Amazing huh? I've been in college for 6 years now and I've spent countless hours on homework and invested thousands of dollars into my education to get a SHEET of nice paper. lol But I can say that I will be DONE with school BEFORE the baby gets here, ACTUALLY 1 Week before the baby is supposed to be here. How awesome is that?! I think its pretty awesome. But thought I'd share and update. Its been a while. :)
Friday, June 18, 2010
In the last three months
In the last three months..
Well so much has changed in my life in the last few months and I don't even know where to begin.. So ill start right up until my husband departed from me. Feb of 2010 we were announced with the news that my husband would be deploying with 2/5. Before him being in 2/5 he was in 3/5 and him transitioning to another battalion happened within a blink of an eye. Nevertheless we both did what we had to do and we went with the flow, as soon as he transitioned that's when the news was announced he'd be heading to Afghanistan in less than a few weeks. Oddly enough, Derek decided to tell me this news on a Friday night, the night we went to file on 2009 taxes. As shockingly as it was I was a little disappointed not only because I wanted him home, but just because it seemed like he just got back from the his last deployment. Well, with him deploying so soon we had to figure out everything and what we were gonna do. So granted, my lovely amazing father and my awesome husband thought it would be best if I move back to Arizona for the time being, (without really telling me they decided that). I was so upset they decided this without consulting me, because I wanted to stay in SoCal, I had a great job I loved my instructors at school and I was set. So I was a little furious that they made the decision for me.. Well we had about 2 weeks to figure out what we were gonna do, well I ended up moving back to Arizona. Well, it was almost that time, and time flew by so fast, we ended up putting all of our belongings in storage, and I was heading home.. Well, Derek left on March 26th en route to Afghanistan, and on March 27th I began the long journey home, with our dog Molly Coco and a car full of the little things I needed. As time passed Derek landed in Ireland for a few days of having a flight lay over. And as I was trying to get my life squared away I instantly started missing him. Well, it was not too long that Derek officially arrived in Afghanistan and that's when it all started..
Weeks have finally started going by faster, I transferred from the southern california campus to phx and I was back on top of things. I heard from Derek often, and things were going good. I started watching my niece every single day. She's 6 months old now, and she has captured a piece of my heart that only she will ever have. In the last three months I've changed my decision about wanting to be a parent. Mariah has softened my heart beyond words. She has truly been a little inspiration to me, and because of her I want children! Ask me that last year about wanting kids I woulda punched you in your jugular. :-). But she has forever changed me.
On mothers day of this year, I asked my mother to forgive me of all the wrong I've done to her in my entire life. And to make me more accountable for my actions I asked her to forgive me in front of about 100 people. As I was asking my mother for forgiveness I cried, I have hurt her beyond words could possibly ever express and for that I am truly thankful for a mother who has never given up in her child, me. Since Mothers day of 2009 I am a forever changed woman.
In the past three months I have had to say bye to my awesome friends, watch some of them move home, get out of the military and some even help us pack our belongings for this deployment. Also, while being back in Arizona I learned that people change either for the better or for worse.. Most of the people that used to admire just aren't a part of my life anymore, and I'm totally okay with that now. Old friends die and new friends come.
With my husband gone, I have become better at a lot of things. I've become more independent on myself and doing things on my own. I'm not saying I don't need my husband, but just sometimes we need to go through a season to learn about yourself and watch yourself grow. And I've done that. I've changed a lot, a lot of my perspectives and desires. I have learned a newer meaning of love and marriage.
So, thanks deployment.. You've made my time well spent. As much as I hate you, thank you. I have an awesome family an absolutely amazing husband that I wouldn't trade for the world. I've learned things that take some married couples years to figure out. I've built more solid realtionships with my family that I've become more happy with life. I wake up in the morning with a smile on my face and a song in my heart. I've learned how to deal with the stressors that make people go crazy :-)
Well so much has changed in my life in the last few months and I don't even know where to begin.. So ill start right up until my husband departed from me. Feb of 2010 we were announced with the news that my husband would be deploying with 2/5. Before him being in 2/5 he was in 3/5 and him transitioning to another battalion happened within a blink of an eye. Nevertheless we both did what we had to do and we went with the flow, as soon as he transitioned that's when the news was announced he'd be heading to Afghanistan in less than a few weeks. Oddly enough, Derek decided to tell me this news on a Friday night, the night we went to file on 2009 taxes. As shockingly as it was I was a little disappointed not only because I wanted him home, but just because it seemed like he just got back from the his last deployment. Well, with him deploying so soon we had to figure out everything and what we were gonna do. So granted, my lovely amazing father and my awesome husband thought it would be best if I move back to Arizona for the time being, (without really telling me they decided that). I was so upset they decided this without consulting me, because I wanted to stay in SoCal, I had a great job I loved my instructors at school and I was set. So I was a little furious that they made the decision for me.. Well we had about 2 weeks to figure out what we were gonna do, well I ended up moving back to Arizona. Well, it was almost that time, and time flew by so fast, we ended up putting all of our belongings in storage, and I was heading home.. Well, Derek left on March 26th en route to Afghanistan, and on March 27th I began the long journey home, with our dog Molly Coco and a car full of the little things I needed. As time passed Derek landed in Ireland for a few days of having a flight lay over. And as I was trying to get my life squared away I instantly started missing him. Well, it was not too long that Derek officially arrived in Afghanistan and that's when it all started..
Weeks have finally started going by faster, I transferred from the southern california campus to phx and I was back on top of things. I heard from Derek often, and things were going good. I started watching my niece every single day. She's 6 months old now, and she has captured a piece of my heart that only she will ever have. In the last three months I've changed my decision about wanting to be a parent. Mariah has softened my heart beyond words. She has truly been a little inspiration to me, and because of her I want children! Ask me that last year about wanting kids I woulda punched you in your jugular. :-). But she has forever changed me.
On mothers day of this year, I asked my mother to forgive me of all the wrong I've done to her in my entire life. And to make me more accountable for my actions I asked her to forgive me in front of about 100 people. As I was asking my mother for forgiveness I cried, I have hurt her beyond words could possibly ever express and for that I am truly thankful for a mother who has never given up in her child, me. Since Mothers day of 2009 I am a forever changed woman.
In the past three months I have had to say bye to my awesome friends, watch some of them move home, get out of the military and some even help us pack our belongings for this deployment. Also, while being back in Arizona I learned that people change either for the better or for worse.. Most of the people that used to admire just aren't a part of my life anymore, and I'm totally okay with that now. Old friends die and new friends come.
With my husband gone, I have become better at a lot of things. I've become more independent on myself and doing things on my own. I'm not saying I don't need my husband, but just sometimes we need to go through a season to learn about yourself and watch yourself grow. And I've done that. I've changed a lot, a lot of my perspectives and desires. I have learned a newer meaning of love and marriage.
So, thanks deployment.. You've made my time well spent. As much as I hate you, thank you. I have an awesome family an absolutely amazing husband that I wouldn't trade for the world. I've learned things that take some married couples years to figure out. I've built more solid realtionships with my family that I've become more happy with life. I wake up in the morning with a smile on my face and a song in my heart. I've learned how to deal with the stressors that make people go crazy :-)
Thursday, April 15, 2010
"Within you, I lose myself. Without you, I find myself wanting to be lost again."
Day 1 of diet: WOW!
I NEVER thought that living back home and have my mom on my case about what I eat would totally make a difference in what I take in and how much I work out. Actually, I am feeling GREAT! Yesterday I started my fitness training and I worked out twice today! Nevertheless, I woke up and couldn't even move but man I am feeling great. Although I am trying to stick it out and not eat junk food, that is a little hard for me. But I am trying and just within one day I am feeling great about myself. Since we are all attempting to loose weight all together, FAMILY We ALL weighed in yesterday. WE are set weight goals and how much we want to loose. Manuel wants to loose 67 pounds.. He wants to be 180 pounds! Isn't that kinda crazy? Anyways. It's going good.
Other than that, things are going great. I didn't get a chance to talk to you today, but not much is going on except me continuing to look for a job. Actually, you'll be surprised to know that I have my first interview next week with the University of Phoenix. Kinda weird right? but Its a job. We'll see.
Anyways I am off to church here soon, just thought I'd give you my first update on my fitness :)
I NEVER thought that living back home and have my mom on my case about what I eat would totally make a difference in what I take in and how much I work out. Actually, I am feeling GREAT! Yesterday I started my fitness training and I worked out twice today! Nevertheless, I woke up and couldn't even move but man I am feeling great. Although I am trying to stick it out and not eat junk food, that is a little hard for me. But I am trying and just within one day I am feeling great about myself. Since we are all attempting to loose weight all together, FAMILY We ALL weighed in yesterday. WE are set weight goals and how much we want to loose. Manuel wants to loose 67 pounds.. He wants to be 180 pounds! Isn't that kinda crazy? Anyways. It's going good.
Other than that, things are going great. I didn't get a chance to talk to you today, but not much is going on except me continuing to look for a job. Actually, you'll be surprised to know that I have my first interview next week with the University of Phoenix. Kinda weird right? but Its a job. We'll see.
Anyways I am off to church here soon, just thought I'd give you my first update on my fitness :)
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
I miss you..
Today was one of those days where I did my hardest to stay busy. Didnt really help when all I was thinking of was you, and that smile that I am in love with. I'm trying to stay strong but I don't see this getting any easier right now. I just miss you, I mean I know it's only a couple months but man, today is one of those days where I just want to cry because you arent here to tell me everything is going to be okay. I'm having problems transferring to AZ with univ of phx. They told me that my account was in default and in order to transfer I need to pay everything in full. I dont know who people think they are when they tell people that crap... like I have thousands and thousands of dollars to just fork over.. I wouldnt have that problem that I'm having if I had a buttload of freaking money. Stupid people wont call me back, email me back. nothing. Stupid people make it hard for us students to finish an education when no one is helping them along the way. Anyways, Nothing else is really new except that I looked for jobs and posted my resume to a lot of great places. It took me about 2 hours to fill out the application for American Express. I even had to do a simulation to see how well I was with customer service. I hope someone calls me back soon... at least to get an interview so I know someone is looking at my resume.
Today I watched Mariah all on my own and I must say I got a good hand now changing really bad poopy diapers. She is getting so big. She is shaking her head yes and no now! it is so crazy. She stands on her own and wants to always be sitting up. She is so precious. I look forward to waking up in the morning just to hold her and be with her.. She makes my heart happy and I love her sooo much.
Today Molly Coco lost her first tooth! yes! poor dog was playing with her mouth like something was in it. When I decided to look I opened her mouth and there was a baby tooth hanging by like just a little bit.. I showed Vanessa and I told her to pull it.. and she did.. now our puppy is a little toothless.. I saved the tooth. Vanessa told me to send you her tooth in a letter. I thought that was kinda funny. Molly is getting so micheivious being around Lola and trouble. She doesnt listen for nothing. Its kinda funny, but then it's not because she doesnt pay attention.. lol. But either way, I love my lil cute puppy. She makes me soooo happy. and I love her sooo much too!
Anyways, I dont have anything else to really update or say except I miss you sooooo much! I love you beyond belief! you are the light of my life and I am so proud of you.
I love you ,
Bernadette
Today I watched Mariah all on my own and I must say I got a good hand now changing really bad poopy diapers. She is getting so big. She is shaking her head yes and no now! it is so crazy. She stands on her own and wants to always be sitting up. She is so precious. I look forward to waking up in the morning just to hold her and be with her.. She makes my heart happy and I love her sooo much.
Today Molly Coco lost her first tooth! yes! poor dog was playing with her mouth like something was in it. When I decided to look I opened her mouth and there was a baby tooth hanging by like just a little bit.. I showed Vanessa and I told her to pull it.. and she did.. now our puppy is a little toothless.. I saved the tooth. Vanessa told me to send you her tooth in a letter. I thought that was kinda funny. Molly is getting so micheivious being around Lola and trouble. She doesnt listen for nothing. Its kinda funny, but then it's not because she doesnt pay attention.. lol. But either way, I love my lil cute puppy. She makes me soooo happy. and I love her sooo much too!
Anyways, I dont have anything else to really update or say except I miss you sooooo much! I love you beyond belief! you are the light of my life and I am so proud of you.
I love you ,
Bernadette
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Get Some 2/5
For those of you who read my posts, I know some of you do.. but I was given news yesterday evening that The Husband will soon be leaving to Afghanistan. Never did I thought he would have to leave me again. So this was quite a shocker to the both of us, and completely unexpected. So we have so much stuff to do! like plan my living arrangements, get dereks gear list situated. and school stuff arranged for me.
Soooo. his is officially on his pre-deployment leave. great huh?
not too much to say about this subject except ohhrah.
Soooo. his is officially on his pre-deployment leave. great huh?
not too much to say about this subject except ohhrah.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Been Thinking
I've come to realize that my husband has been right all along. And as much as I'd like to say he wasn't right, with this I can't help it. I've finally accepted that my husband is not going to re-enlist in the Navy. I've overlooked a couple of the most important things in a marriage, and one of those is growing together and that we shouldn't be apart. Since he is on the green side, if we were going to re-enlist, I know we'd have to face at least 2 or 3 more deployments. The military has been our life saver, financially. They pay for so many things that I kinda get scared in what we will do once he decides to get out. Derek has been talking a lot about moving back to Zona and actually had been looking at houses online. He really wants to buy a brand new house, everything we design and choose. And I don't blame him. He's always been on the go that he really hasn't had a place to actually call home. And all I want to do is make him happy and be apart of his life. Well, most of you know that I DO NOT want to move back to Zona. For school, but I've decided that I am going to UofA for school, they have a campus in Phx that I can attend and to really think about it we should be set. Derek will find a job at the hospital, and me.. Let's see if I get a job in the future. Lol...
Well, babe-o... I've missed you so much these past few weeks than I have in forever. I love you so much!
Your wife,
Love you husband.
Xoxox
Well, babe-o... I've missed you so much these past few weeks than I have in forever. I love you so much!
Your wife,
Love you husband.
Xoxox
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Good day
Ive talked to my husband today for the majority of the day and that in itself has made my day. I missed talking to him while he was in Korea, he was doing a whole bunch of training excercises. I am so very grateful and extremely blessed for the husband that I have. I know I dont tell him enough how much I appriciate all the things that he does for me, but I do. I am a blessed woman and I dont know what my life would be without my husband in it. I know he isnt here right now to hear me complain about my day, and I dont have anyone to go and cry to right now, but when he gets back all will change. I know it. I miss him so much. you know so many woman take their husbands for granted, that I've made a commitment to myself that I will do whatever it takes to keep my husband happy (gosh, should I be admitting that) ?? :-)
well, its getting late and I need to hit those sheets, i didnt accomplish any of the homework that I was supposed to today. bummer. tomm is homework overload.
Good night
i love you babe0
x0x0x
well, its getting late and I need to hit those sheets, i didnt accomplish any of the homework that I was supposed to today. bummer. tomm is homework overload.
Good night
i love you babe0
x0x0x
Thursday, March 26, 2009
in school
I didn't get a chance to write a entry yesterday! I had some much homework yesterday it was a bit tough to finish all of it but you know me I finished it all. Yes all of it. :-) its about 530 pm here and I just stepped foot in class, I arrived home about 330. Gave me enough time to unpack and kinda rest my mind for a moment. I'm kinda happy to be home but at the same time I already my my family. A lot. But I'm a big girl. I can hang in there and stay strong. Its so weird when you left, I got used to being on my own that the family annoyed the crap out of me. Haha.
The drive was long today, well not really. It took me about 5 hours exactly. With 2 stops. I drunk so much coffee before I left I had to stop and pee. And with my mindset that you given me when we drive to az. "Were only stopping once!". I did not want to stop, I felt like you were driving. Literally. There wasn't too much traffice hitting san diego. When I hit oceanside that's when the traffic got a little backed up. But I made good time.
So tomm I am going to send you the stuff I bought you out. I'm excited for you to get it. I am. I've been so anxious to buy you some stuff that I tend to get ancy. :-) and really really excited.
Nothing new really happening this week, I was thinking if the weather were nice I may take a dunk (haha that sounds funny) in the ocean. I am so ready to get in that nasty ocean water. :-)
Well I'm about to start studying babe-o. I hope your trip back to Oki turns out ok. I'm here praying for you.
I love you babe-o.
The wife. :-)
Xoxo
The drive was long today, well not really. It took me about 5 hours exactly. With 2 stops. I drunk so much coffee before I left I had to stop and pee. And with my mindset that you given me when we drive to az. "Were only stopping once!". I did not want to stop, I felt like you were driving. Literally. There wasn't too much traffice hitting san diego. When I hit oceanside that's when the traffic got a little backed up. But I made good time.
So tomm I am going to send you the stuff I bought you out. I'm excited for you to get it. I am. I've been so anxious to buy you some stuff that I tend to get ancy. :-) and really really excited.
Nothing new really happening this week, I was thinking if the weather were nice I may take a dunk (haha that sounds funny) in the ocean. I am so ready to get in that nasty ocean water. :-)
Well I'm about to start studying babe-o. I hope your trip back to Oki turns out ok. I'm here praying for you.
I love you babe-o.
The wife. :-)
Xoxo
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